Thursday, April 30, 2009
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
OMG! awesome news
UFO videotaped over Giza Pyramid by weather cam April 10, 2009
on the more darker side:
look at a screenshot i took of all thc coffins in georgia
"googled earth'ed" it to see for myself!
click to see coffins stacked high and wide!(gulp)
Monday, April 27, 2009
SWINE FLU is just what i have been waiting for,,to make sence out of all the FEMA coffins being seen around this country(texas oklahoma-yikes-georgia-california-and utah-so on)
please watch this video about our future
screensaver deepsea travels
the book im reading now
Sunday, April 26, 2009
The good folks of FEMA predicted a need for a few million plastic coffins, which are now spread out across the country, but despite this revelation, most of America still thinks their biggest concern is a toss up between the Super Bowl and American Idol.
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Friday, April 24, 2009
OMG- swine flu is coming,, it better NOT get outta control here in USA, California and NY -and TEXAS..too close for comfort....
i had worked hard today to help pave the way for danille to move in with us..we needed a romate and god provided one,,and we know her thru patsy and allen B (she is mother to colins child,,patsy and allens son colin and colin really doesnt have anything to do with Danielle and her daughter (colins daughter named anastasha) so we are not worried - all is under control.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
have tried all these...
omg its ME and my camera
whatsgoing in there .
im feeling abit "cursed" im sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo depressed,,,my case is still on the judges desk,,no word on his decision and we arent doing so well,, im weaning off the meds,,prednisone included, and its starting to be oK but its ruff.
there for a while,,my head/brain was always swimming from lack of anti depressants,
i am takiing them away because there is NO refill for me - i have no doctor for that,im going to see a new shrink (for free) tomorrow- i ws told to prepare for about 4-5 hours there,,(OMG) another system JUST LIKE FAMILY AND CHILDREN services(who i was seeing the last shrink(tracy-i liked her) the last time I was there i had to see doctor and he was such a "dick" to me..totally blew me off with his patronizing me and un-empathetic attatude,he was rude and hateful and am not going back to a place thats RUDE! im already sensitive and in a "state",so why u wanna mess me up more,,mr doctor?? its all because its for indigent care and its completely inadequate in all aspects for me,, and my rheumatoid arthritis case and depression from rheumatoid arthitus and all othr shit that goes along with r.a.
i am with a host of issues,i cannot swallow, so eating is hard- i told my shrink that the last time and she told me what its called,,and shes aware of r.a. and all the crap that comes w/it,,too bad i cant see HER regularly (dr grayson)... i had to buy her time (cost 300) at the SAME TIME OUR car broke down,,we had to get the waterPump replaced.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
but kelly's friends @ her job said come on ,,so we are !.heheee,,
ive had my nap and i feel OK,,im alittle panicked ya know,,,gore phobia and all,,but here we go,,
(i will try to get pics-if no one is bothered by it)--ive been soooo withdrawn and in side my self for about 2 weeks now,,i have just felt real creepy and negative so i didn't" blog " much or even really do anything special except to keep the RA under control and keep doing good and only good. im so tired lately and soooo behind in all my housework.i feel inadequate
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
- i must say=i certainly feel alot better,even with the lower doses im taking, i predicted a smooth effort tho -if i do it slowly...
but prednisone is a different story, i dont know the risks or if i should get to 5 mg daily and keep it there,,i need to research that subject...for guidance. i only know the human body produces the natural prednisone and by me taking it artificially then my own body stopped producing it,,so i gotta figure out what the hell the deal is on this so i dont hurt myself weaning down,,,,they say i shouldn't be messing with it,,but i know my body,,and my body says get down as low as possible and hold it,,,,,until we can get off this stuff all together.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
na just log the fact that i am feeling mucho better - RA has receded, the only thing is really my neck hurts bad..i always take that darvon to be rid of the pain - if not, then my eyes water from the constant pain there, and to turn my head is almost to much,,the bones much be really be messed up in there,,i dunno at all,,but i feel like it seriously messed up in there ,,,my welfare doctor who charges not one penny to see me,,says "oh u got a little bit of arthritis in your neck..no biggy",,OK,,well,id trade ya,my neck for yours doctor, doctors are so different today,, this doc that i am seeing is YOUNG .. id guess around 30 ... i noticed the only doctors that have good manners are all the older ones from old school-i have heard it said from nurses i know,,that the kids comming out of med school today don not know as much as the used to ,,the educating and philosophy has changed
Monday, April 13, 2009
monday morning and its chilly but after today we get warmer weather,,(thats about time)i thought we were gonna go from winter straight in to summer,,,no spring,its been TOO cold ...ug
anyhoo..lifes a bit boring and ive been sleepin' alot,,still down to 1/2 (half) of aaalll my meds every morning,i noticed i can go two days with out the lexapro,,my head starts swishing around from withdrawals - and i loose my peripheral vision then i know its time to take another lexapro,,,then wait again for those symptoms- time grows larger between each doese. i want to kleen my spirt and body,for the coming enlightenment that everyone says is coming in 2012..i wanna be fit and ready to run if the world comes crashing down...LOL!!!!seriously joking here folks-
i was reading another blog and could NOT RESIST linking to it
the info is astounding and its very intriguing website, also has alot of photos that are interesting to say the least http://signsoftheend.blogspot.com/
alien baby awwwww (i want one!)
Do you want to age more quickly? Just take antidepressant drugs. Check out the bad news about how these drugs make you older (but not wiser):
rightwing extremism on the rise,says the news..gulp.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
its raining and cloudy and chilly out - i see our hosta's arre really taking off this year,and we have tulips in front (so pretty)
kell's depressed & I feel numb,
im not motivated cuz the weather is cold and rainy
(i feel the RA alot more now b/c of the cut backs in all meds)
whew,, i got up at 9.00 am,,now i wanna lay back down,,its only 12.00 noon and i have no appitite or motivation .. i was /have been tryingto creat my own movie..its where i am most of the time now ..tryingt o compose this AVI ,,and while i started out with an idea,,to make a CDto sleep to,,real positive stuff to listen to while dreamimg ..so its been taking up alot of my free time ,,it requires my attention and
i find it hard to accomplish anything after hours of messing around,,here is a sample of the pics im using for the classic music in background=
Saturday, April 11, 2009
my computer had viruses that needed to be tended to. I could not keep my intenet explorer open,,it crashed while i was only browsing over and over again,so i knew somethng was wrong. windows I.Explorer caused a error in xvid.dll
(dot).DLL -serious stuff- dunamic link libary cant have errors -so i had to research and get it kleened up. this robot kleened my 2 hard drives (240 gigs) (new virus protection).very kewl.
im crazy they say,,,but its a game that i play,,
noone knows what the rules are and i can stay so far away -
and no one will ask, and no one will wonder, and no one will see, the real me.
Friday, April 10, 2009
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
hi all,,im really swollen this AM due to the cut back in pills i take each day,,one reason is to be prepaired for the future,,i think at the END OF THIS YEAR>>> we will know if our back yard gardens will become ILLEGAL
whats gonna happen in 2012 dec 21st? im gettng a little worried now - thinkin' do need to stock up on storible long lastnig food seeds water weapons and anything else,Oh our military clothing from glenna,(she gave us all her boots, fatigues, military jackets,,skirts,,and LOL -all of it),, we gotta keep that stuff handy and also fire,,matches, and blankets,i gotta make a survival pack down in the basement - fersher! asap.
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
Monday, April 06, 2009
Friday, April 03, 2009
Thursday, April 02, 2009
kelly did some research and we think we see what i have.
its called " Rheumatoid Vasculitis "
yeah, and u can read all about it here:
woah -scary -*mine isnt that bad,but i have painful fingetips and thats why i cant type some of the time (like now) they start to bleed out from the small cracks along my nail bed,ive never had this before the RA.
we feel the need to downsize,,,and be prepaired for anything,,cuz every day weird things keep happening to us,,U would not believe the serindipity,,
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
--------------back and its starting to look more like spring now, the snow is alll melted away- and we still have tulips,whew,,i thought we lost them to the freeze.
im in a funk - after the shrink visit on friday ..then all the snow thru the weekend and kelly feelin so streessed and fixation on cleaning everything,,makes me jumpy and i can only jump in and clean wiht her,,like shs not alone,,and then pray the mania doesnt last for much longer.
we are really realllystressed out,,, and they aretaking away th ONLY thingthat kept me calm nd slowed the cring spells,,KLONIPIN,,because im in welfair state now then they can aretaking away al;l my pain meds darvon and klonipin because its welfare and they will NOT prescribe it,,SO IM WEANING OFF EVERYTHING -PREDNISONE INCLUDED,,IM OK AT TEN MILIGRAMS DAILY FOR QUITE SOME TIME NOW,,IM NOW ON DAY TWO OF JUST 5 MG A DAY -see what happens then- go from there,,im also ALMOST OUT of lexapro and my dr whitte will not prescribe it ,(dont know why) so im gonna skip days and force myself off,and get a clean slate and find a new rheumatoligist (pray and it will happen) - i just GIVE UP on this welfare state tho,,they dont give a damn,,they are over-worked and treat EVERYbodylike a effing drug addict,,i resent being looked at like that,,and forget it,,i throw all these pills right back at you" doctor know it all! " F,***yer drugs and zombie state you want me in,,
OK, get this,,,,,, a doctor just spent only one (1)hour with me and pescribed a LIST of meds,,im like oh,kay=WTF! NO! =
i showed it to dr whitte and she said "im not prescribing that,",(geo-done or something like that?)
im like GOOD cuz i aint taking it either, sure in the hell cant afford it -even if i was gonna take it,
???? i wonder why dr whitte had such a nasty attitude with me?????,,,,im thinkin,if you have a bad day - then dont take it out on the patients,, we didnt ask to be loaded up with rheumatoid,i never signed up for this, soooooo BY GOD-DO NOT GET ATTITUDE W/ME,,U ..U ...DOCTOR! im so sick of "ego maniacs "in the healthcare system - u know what i mean? or is it just happening here in tulsa? we want to move away sooooo bad,,to a better state w/ more health care and resourses then what this little town called tulsa has availibe.