im slowly loosing it // i hope this world is happy with its fucked upself,,im very very dis-satisfied...cough cough cough as i break a rib from all the G.D. coughing...and ive been on a "flare" so damn bad. Hey,, now i know what its like to have NO ARMS--i could not even pick up a damntoothpick if i tried,,i really really rerally really really really really hurt and wannna know WHY!?!
do u see my pain?????????(thinkin to myself-i wonder?)




(((*back here on march 23rd to clean up my mess,,))))
!i was so depressed lastnite,,i had to come in here and wipe out what i typed,,i was upset- OK pissed off about not being able to get up and do anything,i wanted to get up and do things,,,ANYthing...so badly,,as i see the all the world "running past my window",,i wanna go too! damn it!