Friday, October 17, 2008



OMG barackObama is in my friend Gloria's (roanoke Virginia) city right NOW giving a speech that is full of hope and uplifting ,,im looking for GLORIA on TV in the audience- hahahaaa!
i sure do think barack has a cute family
* did u know that my mom and step dad tony(who is a African American) had divorced along time ago,,But i do have a brother(Adam who lives in Austin texas)who is a MUSLIM, he follows Ali..peace be unto him.
point is=i come from a VERY VERY DIVERSE background,,and grew up in rockinroll house where bands set up and rehearsed in r living room and singing all those old tunes i love to this day,, (tony was a lead singer) 3 dognight-gladis night and the pimps - all that old motown and CHicago tranist athority,THE BEST_and janis and jimmy and jefferson air-and list goes on and on - ilove old hippy music---we were hippys in the seventies,,i LOVED IT!
long hair and barefoot! me? born the end of 1961
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OMG i am now back under the black gloomy clouds again,,i cant stay alittle bit happy for anything,,when i went to pick up k she had a attitude, so all the effort i did today went right out the window along with my little bit of happiness that i accomplished things today,,BUT ITS NEVER EVER GOOD ENUFF for her,,so as of NOW i give effing UP! im just going to do what i want to do,,no more knocking myself out for selling things online,,for extra.what can i do about this - we cannot get along - i did alot today and went to the G store looking tired and weak, but the food we needed for tonite's dinner,,i struggled so hard to go get- and tried to everything she asked me to do ,.,, and more to satisfy ,, why is this happening to me,,i ... i pray for peace and get the total opposite-im not eating dinner (punch in the gut feeling again) and neither is she,,,,oH god HELPME. i just keep crying and thinking i cant do this anymore --i wanna walk and keep going untill i die from walking for so long. - at 5.30 i was in tears and had to leave this house,,i realized i have NOONE! -not one person to go to for help,, so i went to woodward park and sat alone thinking in the sun - then i got cold and scared to come home, she is just not happy with me at all...and i cant do anything to fix it,,so i dont know what to do ,and im scared = godknows ive tried

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