I just sat here for over
ONE-one fricken hour
IN
bigtime
HIP/wrist pain just to blog -when i cant even stand the name "blog"- "blog"-ick who started calling it that, how dumb/i just got it ready to publish- and bam! something went
way wrong,, i lost it! everything -OMG -all i typed ,, even my little story of how i remember my great-grandma in her garden ,, wait,wait wait.. forget this,, im just gonna try to remember what the fuck i typed then redo it,, im trying to take a deep breath,relax here and get rid of any anger,,ok,,, go for it,, ---------------- deep breath ------ its hard to forgive this website for loosing my whole page of typing, but ,, it really... was my own hyper-active fault- i did not read what the thing said..i clicked OK ,and it was all gone,,shit-i wanted to just start bitchen here, but now im laughin-
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today is friday, its actully 8.30 pm,,my cat elvis and i are here at the computer and i wanted to take time to log some stuff
today was very very steamy and hot,- i went out side for about 10 minuets- and was sweatng abnormally - so, i went inside,, but i did move one chunk of monkeygrass over to where i wanted it- i took my methotrexate shot today, the dose is now .5cc as per Dr Mckay/ they have also bumped up my remcaide appt. to the 10th of next month august/ instead of the end of august/ they want me every 4 weeks ,not 8 wks - as protocol would have me,,but im stuck in a flare- and it wont let me go. So we have to be hardcore fight back .
The reason im in this state NOW is due to a fight with my kidneys or liver,cant remeber,
but i became " acidic" ? ,,
they said that i have to stop all my metho and remcaide untill blood test came back OK,,
and that took awhile,,
its been about 3 months of this,, i almost was stable until i went acidic,, but they said that just happens,,its why they take my blood every time - so,OK im learning,
anyhow,my hands are going crooked and my wrists are twisted up - and i predict they will be the first to go,,whatever that means,
my wrists are soo delicate,they hurt so bad- (reminds me of the prednisone has weakened me, ive chipped 2 teeth within a 2 month period and my crown fell off too, so that shit- medicine is messing with me, and there is nothing i can do,,
(wont even go on about how my hair is falling out by the hand full) well, lets nutshell,im tired,
i will recall my great grandmas story again - before i LOST ALL my words
on that last effort here, i thought of her because i posted the picture of me in upper left in the front yard about 2 weeks ago,, i was
happy because i was
outside in the garden, an i
planted a flower, and i was very happy about that! i love dirt, love to garden, i love to plant - and i dont care about the DONT DO ANYTHING rule from my doctor,,i have to plant! i inhereted that from my mother , and her mother and her mothers mother ,,my greatgrandma, i loved her -her name was dorothy fink and she, and milo fink, my great grandad ran the post office in a small town in orchard iowa,, hung out with great grandma and grandad alot as a kid, -they had a garden, to the extreme, perfect , as a child i thought it was majik! and so pretty,, but i was afraid of the bumble bees too much to pay attention to the beauty, they were too distracting for me as a kid,,i got stung as a kiddy and was always afaid of anything that buzzzzzes
from that moment on ,,,,,,grrr,,shake shake,ug! ick.
hehehe,,goodnitenow, ifanyone is out there!
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