good morning all u Rheumatoid people out there and othrs who just like to read about my boaring and painful life....heheee(humor)- love my life tho,,would not trade it for nothing,,well,,ok,,id rather be holly marie combs or angelina jolie or some one great and important and influencial,,but its just me here and kelly and 3 lil kittens elvis scottyboobear and star
we are all doing OK except we need our car fixed badly and the kitten is approching
6 mnths now,,>time for a fixing<
and thats expensive - i told kelly if i have to i will get a part time job at the shell gas station around the corner,,if i have to,,shes so funni,, she said ,,thats great,,in between naps,,,perfect,,zzzzzzzzz -i am sleeping my life away BUT ITS THE ONLY ONLY way to keep the RA back,,i thank GOD i have the opportunity to sleep like i do,id be really crooked if i did not sleep all the time - its nature's medicine against the RA --- im still doing 15mg of pred instead of twenty --took about a month to adjust,,i felt sore and swollwen and not so good ..but im doing oK for now,,and i can start to prepair for my hearing in front of a judge about my right to SSDI,,,i cannot believe that its assigned now,,i am so scared tto loose,,i feel like if i loose ,,,,my world will fall apart,,we need that income and i cannot
see me not getting it - gulp......TRASHDAY!!wednesday!get that trash outta here--ahhhhhhhhhh i missed the darn truck,,shesh,,gotta wait until sat now,,,,

goooooood earlie morn 6,43 am=,,my fingers hurt to type,, because of RA and because of the "splits in the skin at my finger tips they r bleeding from splits in the skin..ive been bleachin' things,,floors -walls - sheets -towels -cats -yep cats TOO dangit,,, im gonna beat this ringworm if its the last thing i DO- god its hard to get rid of,,the cats seem "MUCHO " better,,but boo needs Iodine and i am going to find some today! gotta go meet KEVA TODAY (8.30 apt),,,we r running the car at a bare minimum and kellys sister TINA and her 2 kids came up from HOUSTON TX- last nite /////their house is bad from Hurricain IKE but the husband jason riembold is staying in dallas to do BUSINESS,so we got a house full right now,,its AM and they r all sleeping out front,,and i am up to help kelly and myself get ready for today
i cant remember if i took a darvon this morning already,i know my feet bones hurt and i need a darvon for all of the pain this AM but ....did i already take one>? im gonna take another in cse,,,i just cant walk w/o them.. gotta go now,,kelly is up and needs my help,,

A GOOD WAY TO VIEW DEPRESSION and WHERE IM AT:

working to balance this out (as a libra its my duty!!!)


nitenite

Elvis can bne so effing funni,,the lookks he can give ,,i caught a funni look here in these shots...
his EYES have such expression,,thats how we comunicate- thru our eyes,,,its pretty unique to be so close to cat,,i never even wanted to get teh kittens,,hoping to bail out from my promis t take one to help out donna to get rid of them...we took 2 instead
OLDS website dedicated to the kittens,,here:
http://debramaddoxoctober.tripod.com/dm2005/index.htm
i LOVE lookin at these pics..
we were so happy then.........
better yet,this link take u right tothe photo album,,
http://debramaddoxoctober.tripod.com/dm2005/2a.html





OK then theres ME! DORK "miss prednisone".

saturday 6.00 am ~im up with a headache from hell,,its the air and everryday i awake i NEED Ibuprophine asap....its sinuses ferser...OWIE..onmyachin'......
i took my 10mg pred and a tramadol also,,went back to bad then realized i have to have MORE meds 4 my head and feeet(RA) its alll hurtin' too much to go back to sleep.
so im doing this then go back to bed





********dr Kusi said to split up my pred,,19 mg am,,,and 10 mg in PM we r trying to decrease the dependency,,,he said that 20 mg of prednisone and my age ...not good,,,i must get off of it
before it takes my bones to nothin'
hi "G" if u r reading this today,m,,i NEED to email U! i want to talk to ya! k?K!
(later on 10,00pm) up from a snoooze -kells asleep,,we both felt weird today and surrealish--
im doing this right now just to focus on something other then the bad dreams ive been waking up to,,this one was abunch of chaos and it woke me up -to come in here and take some sleeping pills,,aka 2 benodryl and a Klonipin to ease up,,i got stressed out in my dream and it took alot to shake it off - no biggy tho-


i enjoyed the rest and relaxing saturday w/ kelly


but ,my feet have been sooo hurtful to walk on them,(for past few weeks-feet-worst),so this day we bummed,,,we rested -we wached the movie 23-,weird flick-i add'd out at the end,,could NOT focus,,but jim carry did an amazing acting job - hell i cant remember how it even ended.


note: rewatch 23-watch ending

no comment other then "sleeping"