The National Association of Consumer Bankruptcy Attorneys has reported to the Los Angeles Times numerous cases of clients showing up at their offices saying, ’If you don’t help me, I’ve got a gun in my car,’" or threatening to take poison. Murder-suicide rates are soaring all over the country and the media take little note of it. During the 1930s most newspapers were owned by safe, sedate, comfortable Republican families who weren’t about to give press ink to troublemakers, anarchists, Liberals or Communists with their pissy little hunger and homelessness problems. In their view they were just trying to make Mr. Hoover look bad.

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banged up because im so blind (need glasses bad)

this is the worlld we want to live in,,,andy griffith world,,we love this SHOW !!
life is so hard with rheumatoid in yer way of things,,
we r trynig so hard to make it,,car is down NO $
-but we r lillies of the valley - i will create blessed art and sell it for money -
this lil blessing keeps us sane...we have a family to take care of ..must fight to hang on for US!!

well the news is even scarier today,,we DO HAVE some tools in the garage,,i call it the "barn" tho,,,it looks lie a barn i wish it was a barn,,, i wish we LIVED IN THECOUNTRY! and had some land BUT hey- we gotta HOE and we gotta shovel,,,hehehe and a pick/hacker thingy to break ground for a garden - i think its good for mental and physical health anyways ,,to have small garden for some simple things like potatos and carrorts and other,,i know how to blanch and pressure cook adn i know abut "Rootcellers" ,,well,ive seen it done and kelly grew up on a BIG produce farm,,she knows alot about growing & harvest so thats just great,,we need to get a plan and go for it,,about the guns tho,,shit that Scares me cuz im diagnosed depressed,,and i know for godsake i AM! and so is kelly too,,i just take pills to control mine-she cant,,shes already tried all the lexapro the others,,they fuck w/ her head more then the depression so she really cant take them,,and shes tried them all ,,believe ME!
so a gun is dangerous around two crazy women,really UNLESS we had it locked somewhere off of these premises and we could get to it under "emergancy times"...otherwise its no good to have a gun,,
i saw this this morning CNN =
and thought about the gun and said NOPE! not a good idea for us:





*i dont EVEN wanna see our stock today,,,, im not even going to look ,,its probably we owe them now

ahhh i madeit tothe curb w/ garbage this am,,yippie,,im obsessed with trashday,,,
i just wanted to post something that i just read and thought "how damn relivent isthis?" YEP=
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Understanding Depression
Major Depressive Disorder (Depression) is not just a temporary mood, and it's not a sign of personal weakness. Depression is a serious medical condition with a variety of symptoms. Emotional symptoms can include sadness, loss of interest in things you once enjoyed, feelings of guilt or worthlessness, restlessness, and trouble concentrating or making decisions. Physical symptoms can include fatigue, vague aches and pains, headaches, and changes in weight or sleep patterns. For some, depression can include thoughts of death or suicide.
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this from reaDING about cymbalta,,,.ug,,its so me..guess i really am depressed cuz i fit all the symptoms,and maybe i should increase my doase of cymbalta,,no,,noway,,,30mg is enuff,,

most hated attribute of RA is:
"not able 2 do anything"
AND-"we don't know for how long"...."am i down for a day?" or a few hours? a couple of days? everything about RA is unpredictable and it comes with alot of baggage too ,,like depression.
Im so unable and thats about it for today,,,hohum,,(so disappointed in me)

i just realized i dont have any dreams,,this came about because a commercial said" hold on tight to your dreams" and i thiought i have no dreams,GOD THATS AWFULL and no wonder im depressed,,i could just ball right now - and i am.
did u know that the inside of my hands hurt when ANYTHING touches the bones? what does that mean? that my bones are mushey? thats NOT cool and my teeth are are...falling out.i need help- but no where can i find it,,there are no programs and help for ppl like me WHO USED TO WRK HER FUCKING ASS OFF FOR 'THE MAN'" THE SYSTEM" OH I SEE ---BUT NOW THAT I CAN NO LONGER HOLD anything---- im no good ---so i get nothing,,why dont they just kill me and get this shit over with INSTEAD of this slow agonizing suffering that i go thru -AND TRY TO KEEEP MY SHIT TOGETHER BUT I DONT NO HOW MUCH LONGER IO CAN GO ON LIKE THIS..IM ok now =i went in to get a hug from kelly and i saw my lil' cats ,,and i remembered why i live today! look around and be thankfull,,I AM so greatful for all my blessings / i do not mean to grip or complain,,i have no right to complain,,kelly loves me and shes not gonna leave me or run away ...she is the strongest most UN-selfish person i ever met,,, GOD placed her and i together so we can win this battlle called life,, together with a christian attitude "we can WIN" " GOOD always wins over EVIL "right? YES! IT DOES!!!!!!! can i paste movies into here? why ,,,now that i thinkof it,,and think of my photobucket acct,,why not,,im going to add a sunday morning typical morning movie here:

this is weather for US in

our next week,,looks chilly but nice and i love rain -so let it pour..its nature's way of cleaning up outside...............

October again,my fav month and its been such perfect weather i hate to take my naps in day -to miss on such beauty hard to do-but my naps in the daytime r sooo nessessary, i have discovered hat i really need them - i can get away w/o a nap for a day or two, but then i get moody and cry- alot if i dont- sooo the POINT=Kelly says take your nap today,so tonite will be OK. (get.it)

i am just SO SICK OF complaining about the pain, i am so SICK OF THE PAIN, the pills are not working very well to supress the pain,,my feet,i can hardly walk

-i cry from the pain in my elbows and feet why does it HURT SO BAD!?!

this RA is really making me crazy in the head, u may not know this BUT i cant type a word without it being backwards i have to go back and check ALL THE tiem,<-unfixed errorSEE!!!

i beleiv its dislexia i have had it always BUT ITS OUT OF CONTROL NOW- every word is backwards transposed whatever ya callit,,this is why i cheat,,like U and r u commin g ? or c u later

or ppl,for pepole