im reeeaaal tired and going to bed now,,its been a LONG HOT day,whew!
Rheumatoid has really backed off and this is the start of a NEW WEEK on less prednisone.[its week-2-] Im tappering off this shit- down to 17.5 mg from 20 mg lemme explain why=
#!.OMG-PREDnisone is bad for your organs & your teeth,bones,skin,vision and im sure something else too,these are what I SEE and I HAVE issues with.i have had such bad reactions to it with RA flares,i get that swelling in my belly symptom and i look 8 months pregnant.-thats where the "IM HAVIN' A ALIEN BABY" saying came from.
#2.SEVEN-7 years of "mega" prednisone has taken its toll on my my skin and teeth and bones are falling apart now(((i cant even go barefoot anymore-b/c baby toe just falls out of the socket Holder,,NO-joking about this either)))
#3.It does wreak havoc on my mental stability as well,,i feel so effing paranoid about everything,the ONLY way i can get thru the day is with my klonazapam - i take 0.05-3XaDay,not a very high does at all,& ive been taking this drug from the start of my CALVARY JOB,,thats 2003? i think? i'd have to check-i had such bad agoraphobia over that job -that i had hives popping up all over me and my face,,real embarressing too-and the thought of having to perform in this type of business (C.C.and other type debt collections) and i knew nadda about this kind of job - i only know people, and thats what got me the job,HOW TO DEAL & WORK w/PEOPLE(kelly says i endear people and charm people),i wiggled my way into that JOB at CAVALRY & hung in there to the end,,finishing off at 3rd in the comapny,(offices in NY-Minn-&-AZ. and of course here in tulsa ,OK.
~I really had soooo much fun working there-i MISS ARRON KENNEDY-and NICK FRAZER.
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BUT the "stage fright"just killed me ~the doctor I was seeing suggested this klonipin,,i tried it and approved and STIL approve,I do depend on it *BUT I had to go a LOOOOOOOOONG-TIME withOUT it (almost 2 months),i needed it filled on MAY 20th 2008--my order for PPA was NOT comming in as promised. I ddint get my Klonipin UNTIL end of JULY and this was NOT GOOD - i stayed streessed out and could not stand to stay in one place to long or do any thing that took along time / i had NO concentration,,complete with-drawls i suspect naturally when i got a letter from Lilly about the request fro klonipin,,they needed a few other simple things,,and the lady who does this thing out at MORTON scewed it all up and did not complete the forms properly,,so that caused the delay --no one cared eithr,,when i went to explain that this is not right and i bneed my medicine they advised me to bring down empy bottles of what i needed and they will refill untill PPA comes in, OHHH OK great !! THANK U!!! i'll be right there,,so i go and guess what,,they claimed i never spoke to KUSI's NURSE and she will NOT get my medicine,
i was threatened by dr kusi's nurse - i was yelled at by her for explaining to her PPA doesn't have my prescriptions,,i need my meds ",,she just said to me "you just get right on outa her girl...u do this EVERY TIME" then i said "what do i do every time?"(,,hell i never saw his lady before today)
so much for competence and easy solutions ..hell no!its gotta be some kinda BIG effing deal and they UPSET THE HOLY SHIT OUT OF ME !!!!!!!!!!!!
back to my story of MORTON _HELL "empty bottles and no problem" OK so i do this and when i get there,,she sees i need my prdednisone and kloipin & i told her i still have no cymbalta,,,,she said "i NEVER talked to YOU and I DID NOT TELL U TO BRING Ur EMPTY BOTTLES for refill", i said "wha?" i was stupefied,,OMG here we go again- hassles from the authorities(they LOVE having the control over you as a patient they must all be some kind of sadistic, mean spirited people-
"NURSE ratchet" type)-and so i said forget it-forget you guys -you guys are the problem and i left, I thought on the way home i'm NOT EVER EVER going back there again -- but just today i had a appt with NEW doctor out there-to,,its Monday night (i had kelly go w/me to Morton today) BUT we had a issue pop up and it stole my chance to meet this NEW DOCTOR(female too)theISSUE:MY BLUE CARD XPIRED-so ofcorse it took almost 3 hours of just waiting for help with renewal on my card,,then i was so effing COLD in there - i just could not take it anymore.I re-scheduled for a later day and we took kelly back to her POE=guaranty abstract co:
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its a very cool job,,it takes alot of legal knowledge.

what a HOT morning -jesh HELL on earth -its cool inside but H-O-T OUTSIDE''heres a screenshot of our weaTHER :



sux the bigone we thought we were gonna get it easy this yr,,nope,,it was saving all that heat up for august! a HOT AUGUST on its way -damn!


now its a bit later,,ive got the house all under control,trash to the curb kelly went to work,(OT) - i got attacked by mosquitoes BAD by waterign the gardens and spent about thirty minuets scratching and puting ice and benodryl on the bites,,OMG i was eating alive,,those mosquitoes are really hungry-they usualy dont bother me,
heres whats up right now,,im digging on ld tunes,,cuz kelly got a kewl MP3 player from her sista!tina,,and shes been loading it up with all kinds of good stuff but it sparked a session of "i gota replace everything i lost on my old harddrive went out ten gigs of music GONE! " anyhoo,,look:
JUST KIDDING ofcourse.

its Friday! and I'm exhausted now at 9.00 am.I've been running around trying to keep up w/2 cats a baby and a girl trying to get ready for work,, and now I'm like seeing double -and fighting to stay awake,,i have everything under control and i want to go photo plants for sale-and i cant seem to get the energy.damn.
~i must take a second to catch my breath now~

well,im backat 1.30 pmi slept then somehting woke me up,,i cheked on littleOne,,shes still asleep in the chair when i left her this am,,
i woke her up and she was soooo loving to me,,puuurrring and getting aLL SNUGGLY WITH ME,,IVE never seen her do that before ... cuet as ever! she really is somthin' else!
ONE THING my RA is bringing about is a bad case of Agoraphobia is an anxiety disorder, often precipitated by the fear of having a panic attack in a setting from which there is no easy means of escape. ...
UG! yep,,its bad,,im scared of my own shadow! LOL!
The word agoraphobia is derived from Greek words literally meaning "fear of the marketplace." The term is used to describe an irrational and often disabling fear of being out in public.

sounds like me alright,,and i gotta go to the effing market place right now,,i had to take a full klonipin and stand outside for awhile inorder to face the task,,i wonder why i get like this,,it comes on real bad outta nowhere too,,,,ill be fine and OK out and about,,but then allof a sudden,,out of the feeling of somehting so scary,,i cannot descibe it,,i could probably paint the feeling better then describe it,,but i am not into that kind of art,,i lke beautiful things,,only!

-this is where i found her when i let her go with the boycats out on the porch-CUTE..it took awhile for me to find her,,i brought her back in and placed her into hr own soft bed...


i am again worn OUT! -OMG kitten star got into something - she fell or we dont know what happened ,,,all i knw is i discovered that she wasnt commingh for food and thought WHA???????????? that's just weird and whats wrong, and sure enuff she was injured,,she had a BAD-limp on hind leg(the leg w/ the gold toe) and she hadnt eaten for I DONT KNOW HOW LONG i went into "full protecton mother mode" and well,,HAPPY as all to say she is BETTER toady =




i had to sleep with her - or beside the big kennel to keep close by-,,force feed her,, place her into litter box and when done cover it for her,,she watched everything i did,,she looked at me with such a sick and hurtfull feeling i broke down and had to just go vcry ,,i then PRAYRED for my lordjesus tohelp and save and heal her and protect her --and praise GOD ..this morning she came out of the kennel on her own and WAS JUST SITTING IN THE DOORWAY LIKE -HELLO KELLY AND DEBI,,WHAT CAN I EAT?,,we just adore her and love her and she is sooo in my heart now,,god we LOVE HER!

im super tired today,,i had so much going on thru last weekend that i am now worn out and unable to really keep up[, i have to lay down every 30 minuets to regain strenght to go on,,no biggy tho,,im not complaining,,im just saying,,,,

i found this CUTE lilpic of my nephew stevie HES SO DAMN CUTE HERE = i LOVE this picture,,it always makes me smile from ear to ear

know what i mean? C-U-T-E!!!

Arthritis-related problems include pain, stiffness, inflammation and damage to joint cartilage and surrounding structures. It can lead to physical deformities and interfere with most basic tasks, including driving, walking and even food preparation.--yep. true that-

its SUNDAY morn about 5.40 am- i awoke to a sound of something falling into water,,then after i came to my senses,,i realized it was star baby falling into the OPEN toilet,,LOL! PLUNK is all i heard,,i could not find her to wash her off,but that's so funni cuz we always shut the toilet cover but last nite,,i was wiped out and Kelly too (shes been O.T.-ing to the max)
~this lil kittten sure feeds my soul~Im glad we have her,even tho she hard to keep up with -but shes learning quickly and she reminds me of Elvis when he was little,,she "cat's" JUST like him,,,she's smart smart smart-and sassy!
how could anyone not love this lil'jewel
LOOK AT HER: