morning Burrrrr cold.

1st picture is me in the morning,,then after about 3.00pm,,aftern apping,big diff..i have not been feeling very well i have no energy at all-,,been very sleepy and unable,,the pain is in my elbows,,i NEED to photo them,to document the swelling and redness ,,,also in my feet . They will not stop hurting -they hurt all the time,,i feel it most when i wake up,,the" RA bugs"=are realllllly buzy attacking me while i sleep,,, every time i wake up its the first thing i feel,,my hurting toes and ball of my foot hurt so badly,,im wondering if i may end up w/ bad feet,,that would suck... (i think my depression shows in my pictures)

Late,,,late= and im so tired sleeepy,but im having ahard time sleeping at nite,im up now @ 12.18...after 2 benodryls and a darvon,,i was on hte heating pad for my hips and back side legs..but i think it got hot and woke me up-pics from this am=

sat nite,,we have been in cold weather with high humidity and finding it hard to stay awake or get up any energy,i have allergies and they are getting worse, we think its because of that ICEstorm brought down so many trees that all the pollen andwhatever has been all kicked around and stirred up. and we r breathing it,,PLUS all the CHEMTRAILS up in the skyTOO!

*god i love these cats ..how can a person be so attached to animals,,2 cats,,i just dont know what id do without boo and e..they are our 'lil gifts from god.

another gift from god worth mentioning is we have invested -yep..in the stockmarket,,I KNOW-all timeLOW (buy low- sell high) we paid 18 cents a share for alot of stock in a" NEW- inovative- on the horizon- technical thingy stuff-" its already earned us a thousand by its climb..... we were blessed with this i do believe. its going to be our blessing down the road.

=the familiar_-The_Love_Potion art. =notice the black cat ?
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its almost 1.00 am,,i woke up ,(first nite after 4 good nites)need to go back to bed,,,i am making too much noise for the household and the cats wanna play -they r following me around chasing my robe string -im woosey and out of it right now= i did go see my shrink tonite {02/20 6.00pm appt} ,,,i told her again that ,my gorephobia,,whatever,,its pretty bad and i have to be forced out in order to go anywhere,,and OMG i HAVE to take a klonipin first - the "neurotin" seems to have calmed that type of anxaity to a more tolerable level... tho,,we shall see,,, it was all i could do just to go see her ..more later when i can think straight,,\
its 4.20 right NOW- i havetopick up kelly at 5.30 pm -ijust woke up from my nap,, and im all RA'dout ...even have golves on to type... hands are real sensitive - and i have splitz real bad
(cuz im tired )
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Date:
Thu, 21 Feb 2008 03:11:15 -0800 (PST)
From:
"Ivan"
To:
debramaddox@sbcglobal.net
Subject:
[the.girl.who.hates.R.A] New comment on =the familiar_-The_Love_Potion art. -------------....

Ivan has left a new comment on your post "
": Sorry. Look please here --which was NOT a "good" here (i removed the hyperlink)
Posted by Ivan to the.girl.who.hates.R.A at 5:11 AM

once again that guy IVAN left a comment that seems to do BAD THINGS to computers,stop leaving comments like that,, why r u doing that?

last night we had a LUNAR ECLIPSE (pinkfloyd)

im real tired today,,and cant do anything its 60 degrees and im so effing tired,,

MONDAY at 7.30
we r up. kelly has the day off as a holiday-
ive been up since 5,00am b/c my feet and elbows were going crazy w RA.i had 2 get to my prednisone,,,took my am (morning)pills (nurotin 300 mg - pred 10mg- and a darvon 65mg- 4 ibuprophines & i do feel better now,, from 5 am untill 7.30,,thats how long it too for me to feeel OK (enuff to walk on my feet and sit here to type)
typing been a real issue lately,,i cant seeem to last very long onthis keybord..i had a luminix light board that i broke,,damnit! now im using the generic backup keyboard and its ruff on my hands.

my art




i love EGYPTIANS!
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8,09 am /me and kelly are here-sitting here infront of the computrs "waking up",,,,,
Ug! i cannot tell you how much better i am feeling with the NEUROTIN -
i think it helps my MOOD TOO as well as my muscels,,as they are NOT burning in my hands and feet anymore,,,
and IM SLEEPING BETTER..i think its all very significant -Kelly remimnded me that "leah-MY shrink"- said i should take this drug but WISEMAN NEVER WOULD precribe it for me,,,its been very good and no bad effects,, good job DR KUSI- love him!
NEXT=got ready,went to walmart for food,,god thank GOD for foosstamps,,OMG -at least it gets me nutrition so i can gain some weight,, i needabout 5-8 pounds on me,,but its not happening,,i never gain-mystery-high matabolizim. i have always been a hyper -brat-and cant sit thru ONE MOVIE. its the ADD and hyperness that have caused all the trouble in my life,, i cant sit still most of the time. even tho im always tired,, its so confusing
----------tooooo skinny- i have atophy