hi -today is FRIDAY dec 28th and we r celebrating our 7th year (kewl)

i feel OK now- -better then yesterday because i took darvon yesterday for pain but took oxycodine today,,,,and the difference is incredible,,,, dr wiseman released / fired me from his patients based on that ol' "sour apple atthe front desk" well, she has a bad attitude and dumb as a box of rocks-sorry its true tho-anyways,,,im released/fired from him because of her,,(just great),,i called her and told her how i felt about allthis ,,then hung up on her,,ohwell,,,

gods pushing me to a new path,,im scared cuz i dont know whats around the next corner,,im thinkin' " when did i become so afraid of the unknown????",,i used to live in the unknown,,i was raised by my mom and dad with the UNKNOWN === sooo im going with the flow and just take it as it comes,,new doctors with new procedures-new places to go-and new faces and connections,,hoping for the help i need - i have to get the RA under controll,,,im sleeping 16 hours a day,,if i do not sleep for that long,,iget sick,,,very sick,,weak-no appitite and it lasts for about 3-4 days,,i have to sleep for 16 hours or im screwed - weird weird weird,, i cannot increase my prednisone from 20 miligrams daily- because it makes me wired and crazyparinoid and im unable to sleep at all ,,so i have to just stay w/ 20.mg and find something else,,enbril is alll ive NOT tried,,its all thats left,,remicade just about killed me with ther injections of metho- i cant do that again- i just cant