~its 12.50 PM kelly ame hoem from work sick,,exhausted,,this after she slept alll day yesterday,i know shes so effing tired,,i do "nothng " compared to her and im whipped - i let her sleep while im here to blog and then go run a few errands,,

Gstore -nail in tire fixed-Iodine for those ringwormcats - jeshnow boo a e are fighting the Rworm-baby seems to be over ti,,E on his way back to normal,,but BOBOO,,hes hes got it in a bad place his fae,god they do not clean them selves worth a shit- why they have it so bad - i have ruied my relationship with them over this,,i swear whe3n BOO sees me,,he runs,he thnks hes gonna get appple cider or tuff acten tanacin or IODINE one of those is headed for him all the time,,then i gotta bleach and vaccume everyday everywhere..look at pooor pooooor boobaby:

~i got stung by a yellow jacket in the garage yesterday eve,getting the trashready to the curb- no biggy,,didnt hurt too bad,,- just weird, because why now>? iwas not doinganything and the effer just sting my on my hand,,UG! i pushed it off in the nick of time,, -he didnt leave his stinger in me,,ThankGOD!
i have that creepy "swollen-alien pregnancy thingy-belly-" again today,,it started yesterday,,i felt real sick like i had caught a bug or soemthing nausea and sore from head to toe,,didnt want towalk or anything --& i had a gut ache from "H - E- double hockey sticks",,, it effected everything and i didnt want to move around too much but i took a Darvon,,ohhboi ..knocked that pain right out! Bamb! GONE, then i was able to go straighten out the front of this house,,- its been alot organizing around here,,im trying to get rid of any clutter,,its a obessive compulsive thaaaaaag,,- down size.i always want to down size,,oh OR really-ORGANIZE i think thats what its truely about ,,thats the ROOT of the issue,,i need to organize for some reason,,(gotta ask my shrink about that) BTW- a memory here, of when i was talking on the phone to my caseworker,,Keva, a few days ago-, i told her i needed to get w/ the program and i needed to talk to a shrink- i called her a shrink,,hope thats OK,>? dunno ?,,she was like "meet me 3 X then i pass u offt ,OK? <,so we meet next wed,,i have NO idea whats in store nor do i really care,im going w/the flow here and thats just that,,nothin else i can do soooo,,, BTW= we killed the cone of bees,,HAD TO because they were getting agressive,,(not cool at all -wasssps scare me bad-gives me the willies just thinkin about um,) i spent the afternoon getting "ORGANIZED" in that front room,,i have to photograph- and list all the garage sale stuff -- then alter all the photos,,(they are HUGE when i download them,i have to change every picture and its size ,,its INSANE and ive tried to look for the size settings,,and had others try too,,no luck,.--thats on the kodak camera,,not my cannon,,-the cannon sux because i dropped it and it's just never been thes ame for focus - and quality -i screwed it up bad ,,sooo sad, but at least it still works - its what i take all the AVI's on.

10 minuets to eight AM=
i took my meds,which ONLY consist of this:
1.prednizone EVERY AM = lowered dose from 20 to 17.5 everymorn,(been about 2 weeks now?)
2. 20 mg of LEXAPRO (the nrew doctor said this is good,,throw away the CYMBALTA,,so i have not had cymbalta fromthe day i went to see them @ family and children services,,no problems switching either,,and she prescribed S and i think it knocks me OUT,,m sapossed to increease my dose to anohter puill at PM time,,but one is enuff,,i cant wake up at all,,, even when im up and driving and talking,,im really SLEEPING but just acting like imUP and doing things,,i swear,,i gothee to this computer and i see i was UP in the middle of the nite- chowing down on crackers & cheese,, what a mess -crumbs all over the flooor and my chair and i even leftit all just sitting here...jesh,,i dont even rememeber it,,,scary -
thats really what i take for meds now,,if im in pain theni may throw in darvon,,but i just take the ibuprophine this eary in the AM,,darvon will kock me out now- it used to make me hyper,,now i fall asleep eveytime i take them-
~ i miss my little sister mary,,shes soo on my mind...i want to go over to her house and visit,,its just she lives so far, and gas is soo expensive - so sad,,here we r,,, just last year in this picture,,shes so pretty, always ahas a fan club too,,she knows EVERYbody,,,,we r sooo funni too-,,she is JUST like me,,she's my double,,but she's funneir then i am,,shes so much fun to be around-

what a beautiful day,this is what i call minnesota weather,,when the sky is blue as blue can get,,and the big white clouds are soooooo pretty ,,i want to paint that onto canvas and on my bathroom ceiling,,-! i would have already had done the ceiling art,,but it cost money and we dont have any- not complaining,,just stating,,i wish
so badly i could work,,when i say that,,kelly says,,but u cant even stay awake for one full day,,shes right too, i just dont know - its 12.noon and im super sleepy,,again,,
but star is/me andihad totake movies of her,,shes growing and being so darned CUTE - ohgod she's cute -ouch,,she bit me,



friday late afternoon-4.20pm,all is fine (i slept),,i went down to P/U K and all was well,no isssues & happy happy joy joy -its friday,--but,...but...?
but *something* went wrong and then hell was the word for about most of the eve,, suckedtheBigOne.

where i been hanging out lately...... http://www.truthed.com/

tyingto get it .. i should get this book,, i see its very much a #1 seller now-
IdoLOVE Zach.SITCHEN -his writtings are incredible,
*reading always puts me to sleep so i look for the MP3s and just let the guy read it to me aloud! thats the BEST way for me,(im a ADD head) *

=OMG this MOVIE is a TRIP!
these guys are telling me that there is NO JESUS,,oh god,forgive them,, for they know NOT what they r saying,,,
this film blew me away,,i think my chin was on the floor the whole time-and i really didnt watch all of it because i went into shock when they said jesus never was,,i doNOT belive that at all,,jesus WAS here but i have no proof - BUT history and stories from the bible are true as sientists discover new places andnew evidence- THE BIBLE IS HISTORY!! btw-thats a great book i own,,,anyhoooo=
>> thats what the film is all about<<. we believe in things that we dont even know if they are TURE or not,,,so effing weird- i have to think of this - "imsoulsearchin''' LOOK , people are gonna say " why do u watch/read or look at this type of stuff " why not ITS ON FRONT OF ME,,IM NOT SCARED and i will never waver in my allegance with the ut most powerful creator of me and you and everything else! i look/size up on everything,,im a libra,,i need MIDDLE and i need justice and truth, im so in LOVE W/beauty ,LOVE ,& harmony,,i craaaaave that,,i neeeeethat,,,
i look at religion as a whole not a catagory NO LABLES./ no catagory-a ONE GOD whatever HER name is,,,,,(opps i had writting here but i see its gone---) cuz i was on a spin- and just didnt even look back at what i typed,,i had to go then so its screwed,,im leaving it alone thho,,,and just continue here- i was saying / typing NO i will never accept that Jesus never was,,
i wil not believe that jesus never WAS!!!NOWAY! he WAS here-period-
=its 6.00 am thursday morn,,i awoke to NO ats,,,i had to get up and find out why>? well,,,nothing,,i empressed,,she remembered if she woke me up that she mite go to the kennel untill 6.00 am and THEN I'LL get up,,,,not at 4.30 am tho,makes a looong morning
gotta link to this site --its got evenything alien and more news of anything UFOish=
UFOs Aliens Bigfoot Government Cover Ups ...
http://www.truthed.com/
it's the #1 resource for News, Videos, And Discussion on UFOs, Aliens,Government Cover Ups, Big Foot, Weird Travels, JFK, Hot Topics and More!www.truthed.com/ yep,great stuff indeeed,,i endulge and time will go by do fast - if i look at sites like that, i am hooked on UFOs
i have YOGA today-and meditation(included n class) 2.30 pm

i couldnt make it to YOGA(tear) ihad to sleep,,somethings wrong w/ me again,,i said the other day im "RIP VAN WINKEL lately" -- i feel like i cant get enuff sleep --
i just ate dinner and al is quiet tonite ...i was just clickin around,,from CNN off to some other link,,then off to another,but whats weird about this is i ended up here,, to read this story, and had to post it for "G" we were kinda talkin bout religion and i am so wide open to possibilities and i always think that im out there,,,but then i saw this and thought " awwwwwwww-ThankU Jesus " hes so sweet to us: i needed something like this story,,i was searching in my heart today about this very topic-
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source:
http://www.russiatoday.com/features/news/24731?gclid=CNf0mNGyw5UCFRJdxwodlyDaRg
May 14, 2008, 11:12
Aliens are our brothers:
Vatican There is no contradiction between faith in God and believing that aliens may live somewhere in the universe, according to the Vatican’s chief astronomer, the Associated Press reports.
In the interview with the Vatican newspaper L'Osservatore Romano, the Rev. Jose Gabriel Funes is quoted as saying he doesn’t rule out the possibility that life could have developed on other planets."Just as we consider earthly creatures as 'a brother,' and 'sister,' why should we not talk about an 'extra-terrestrial brother'? It would still be part of creation," said Funes. "Thinking otherwise would be like ‘putting limits’ on God’s omnipotence."Funes discussed the relationship between science and faith, saying there was no contradiction between the two.He also urged the Church and the scientific community to leave behind any divisions.
im so happy about this "liberal" statement

as far as blessings,,, these are ours,,,,aaaaaallll three of um.
they are so precious

ive been ripVAN winkel again,,i cannot getoverthe lethergy i am having,,all is dragging and if i see the bed,,i just go numb and i become so tired i myust lay down,,whats thaaaaaaat all about,,ive exprerenced this before but its been awhile,i mean i am T-i-r-e-d! beyond tired,,its like ive been drugged,hey! waitAAminuet,,i AM being drugged,,i wonder if it has anything to do with that "S" drug i started taking? ive not really paid any attn to it,
i like to just go with the flow - THEN if medical issues POP UP from whats NEW in my collection,,well,,i simply know its "that new drug "and will evaluate it on weither its worth it or not,,my elbows HURT..and my feet hurt,that area around my spine between sholders,U KNOW same ol -sameol---but at least i feel well rested,,because i selpt right past my YOGA CLASS 2DAY(tear - i love that class)......... i really was dresses to go and ll,,i just did not wake up-

very early this am -4.00am- = i certainly did awaken this baby kitten running around in circles on my chest,,STAR-she gets up sooo early. and she comes to get me while im snoring along at 4.00 am ...............
but LOOK at her tho,awwwwwwwwwww:
adorable,,but thats not starOMG! funni
i am serious here folks....
OK..... heres the baby......she looks real sweet BUT its a scam!!!
she is as wild as W-i-l-d can get -then OH oooohhhsoooo sweet & cute then shes UP and frunning in circles rond and to catch her tail-shesjust a baby ............ and we love her so much.
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whats going on politically is crazy man - crazy !!!-like this QUICK grab a female for vice- pres,,just to copy the dems,,OMG how OBVIOUS HES SO SO so stupid [-i swear - if anyone votes for him U R blind and i promise this country will go police state in a record time,,i mean like OVER NIGHT ...if u enjoy your freedom- you'd better vote democratic,,LOOK IVE been registered REPUBLICAN for as long as i could vote-,,but i do NOT rekognize the party any more,its turning into such a "nazi -than",,i swear to GOD ! (i am embareesssed and ashamed for most of our republian electorials,,in all postiions at all levels,,just ashamed )
i read alot on political isssues nd what have u -and alexjones : infowars.com - i know its "bias" but whatever,,
http://www.rightwingnews.com/ for right view,,ug! uptight and hipocritacal
http://viewsfromtheleftcoast.blogspot.com/ for the left side of things
NPR. for the middle ((my fav. 4 ever)))
http://www.npr.org/

well its a holiday " labor-day " for women who give birth
is what it should be for -men&woman of the workforce = a true thank you for running america and "Delivering the "Payload"...
-I know people who work there ass off (K41)and all around them we can hear
complaining about what ever is in front of them, just to be negitive,i dispise that ol negitivity,,
I believe that every morning you should get up & say thank you for this oppurtunity to have ajob and i am greatfull for the blessing!damnIT!!!!!~ im doing OK today except lazyness sad but true,,K is absorbed into >homework,statistics class -I think tooo much math but its interseting, as all her classes have been.
RA is still hanging on just Barely ( A is getting wornout on keybord-sticks every damn time i touch it-must,,,try to Avoid words witih the letter Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa-see,ug !!!
i haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaave bad feet and elbows /// they r real sensitive,,im still doingthe 20 mg down to 10 mg pill and half then quarter,,untill i can make it on 15 for a while-,,then go to ten,and so forth..