Monday, November 02, 2009

so now its 10.40 am,,ive been worried and thinking and aksing myself,how can i be a better person? just how do i play this game? i can never recall communication and just floating thru any old day with so much trouble,and unable to even understand whats going on with everything?
is my mind playing tricks on me ? am i being over dramatic? whats wrong with me? what am i doing wrong,i want to know so i dont do it again or at least make a effort to be conciderate of anyone else and everyone else ... i dont want foolish ideas or thoughts,i want to be logical and understND whats whaT-- but i feel confussed and scared and like i have to do something,,but i dont know what.
im painting a picture of leaves and the wind. if i had a camera ,id post a sample but no camera.
i can put all of my heart into it and hope for the best - im using acrylic because i have soo many colors. im sitting out on the fro nt porch and enjoying the sun and nice weather we are having
(50 degree nites and 65 degree days) so i was here and its all quiet,, ive been without TV on during the days because i just dont want all those prescription and insurance commercials bombarding me any more,i can do with out any TV.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

I have been reading your blog for several days.... It breaks my heart to see you this way... I don't have anywhere near the pain that you have... or that you experience... However I have recently been diagnosed with Mesial Temporal Sclerosis... Which has been caused by Temporal Lobe Epilepsy... caused by.. WHO THE FUCK KNOWS!!! I just wanted you to know that I am reading.... I see you... I am sorry... Please don't stop.. Don't give up... It has taken weeks to send this..... PS... IWALWUTM

Anonymous said...

I have been reading your blog for several days.... It breaks my heart to see you this way... I don't have anywhere near the pain that you have... or that you experience... However I have recently been diagnosed with Mesial Temporal Sclerosis... Which has been caused by Temporal Lobe Epilepsy... caused by.. WHO THE FUCK KNOWS!!! I just wanted you to know that I am reading.... I see you... I am sorry... Please don't stop.. Don't give up... It has taken weeks to send this..... PS... IWALWTWS