its a friday morn,,its cold burrrr,,and i feel depressed,,i went to bed last nite with a heavy heart,,kelly told me about finding out some shit on her real father,(who is a total mess-up -ug) soo she felt a heavy haert all damnday about all that stuff / and i felt so sad,,and thought god,,why do our parents do what they do ? they are not there,and we need them,,we are on our own and always have been,,how effing depressing - sometimes we say we are gonna,,nevermind,,,forget it..later,,i feel heavy and sad and hopeless,,as i sit here in the dark thinking of all the things i should have done differently in my life.
RA report,,woke up very sore and feet hur to walk on them ,,my sore spine is doing it again,,swelling up and painful. theres a hump there where its tender and sore and hurts to turn myhead,,i will get overit with darvon tho,,soi can start to wointerize this old house - with whatever i can think of,,we cannot afford to heat this house so we block half of it off so we onlypay for the back side of the house -where we hang out,,