been awhile since ive been here,, MY COMPUTER was sick andwe had to play doctor,ended up kell fixng it(she has way more patience then i) she replaced the power supply and (thats what was not working) also hooked us up to surge protector,,we have lost so many video and sound cards from living in this area ,,we have a unstable power grid and its old as dirt,,,just like this house,,historic house
more later,gotta go..kelys up now not doing well,,i hear fustration in the other room-
OK back ,im nice and depressed now,,thanks and good morning ...how the hell did i end up in this mess? i say F*ckITall-i cannot type anything because i am so full of shaking and insecuity just plain old whipped to a post and i cant have anymore energy from what this moring cost me,,,,this morning was hell,,(i was told by kelly that i let her oversleep b/c she said i do not care bout anyone butmy self,,(im crying now)
ok and then--told that ido not do anything for anyone,,i dont care about anyone but myself,,and i do
nothng for anyone unless i get something out of it,,and i cant remeber what else,but god damn,,i SUCK<,i say just shooot me,,and be done withme,,already,, ) OOooookay,,,so f*cktoady f*ck it all and whatever about anything =,, im so effing crooked (bones) and mentally too,,im very very confussed about reality and what i observe and what is true..i need help. (i feel worthless)