its Friday and i have 2 appointments today
one at 9.00am,(can we talk) *shrink
and another at 2.30pm,with a newdoctor who is at bedlam,,(finally got in -i found the magic password)
sinus matters are bad,,puffy eyes and runny nose
Kelly's feelin' better,we gotta get our car looked at,,its leaking anti freeze bad
RA has been at a minimum,,i did realize that the only thing that really is a bother is my neck,same ol' area,,,
I woke up w/RA in elbows and neck and hands but i still feel like its going away,,somehow,,its leaving me,,I'm glad,,it really seems like its trying to go away...
i starte the plastic over the porch windows then went to pick up kell at 4.30 yesterday,,and we finished up the windows,,TONITETHE FREEZE IS COMING hate that! the cold hurts me,,i do so much better in this kind of temp .. 60---70 degrees where is it 70 degrees all year around,,so i can move there,,cannot stand the winter.
POLITICS ---getting strange,,i see everyone is going crazy still,,OMG its insamne,,i feel like we should take outr bumper sticker off because we mite get attacked over it..?...
we have a friend who said she went to the gun show--well,,everyone there bought everything UP and they were all saying how Obama is going to take away the guns,, well,, i told her that both
obama and mcsame were under the control of NWO -Carlyle group-the CFR and the Bilderburgs- and Bohemian grove ppl - i asked have you heard of any of these groups who control it ALL
she said nope,, she thinks im crazy- but hey point is,,
NO MATTER who it is,, the plan is
1.get the guns away from Americans.
2.order out of chaos
3.to kill 2/3rds the people
then the left overs will be stong as they have flushed out all the weak people,,these left overs are going to be a asset .in ways toooo complicated to go on and on here..
but i know about all of this thu all the things i read underground and i believe it,,i do,,
chem trails are Suspicious
and plastic in water bottles - soda bottles is a sure slow way to kill alot of us,, with sickness that comes from plastic and chemtrails

back from the shrinks,i cried there talkin to her again..i cried about myself and how stupid i am about everything...i mean,,im very immature and i was talkin about that,,and i cried,,,,then i cried again whenii said i dont want to be a bother, and i want everyone to like everyone, and i want life and everything to be .. to be equal for everyone,, i wish i was not so black and white with everything,,i have no gray areas,,and i need t find the gray,,she wants me to try to stay away from things that excel my agitation,,like politics,,and the news and all this food shortage coming and how we wont be able to pay for anything in the future as cost go higher and higher

*she is a good therapist indeed*

we pay for electricity and for natural gas,,in this house,and this house is falling apart,,i see where we need to redo everything like pluming and walls and ceiling --its alot of work,,and it all be doe by now if i did not have RA! damnit.

neck is really giving me a hard time
elbows extreeeeeemly painful
hurtz here so badly
look @these two

good moring all u RA ppl ---i never came back yesteday,

i HAD TO rest BUT i MESSED UP SO BAD_ i was so under the influence of RA yesterday,,i felt so creepy and ill that i slept aaaaaall day ,,Kelly tried to call over and over and over,i never even heard the phone,,,untill about 2.00pm,, i heard kelly on the answer machine..and i finaly woke up . i answered the phone,,and she reminded me that i have a appt with the foodstamp people downtown,,SHIT! i slept right thru it,,i could have hobbeled down there,,but i was soo extremly tried and under the RA spell,,i had NO IDEA,, i was in bad pain,,

-knuckels hurt so bad

-FEET bones -HAND bones -HIPS and -MY NECK

our weather is changing today its windy and damp out

we have a storm comming,and colder weather too..i hate the cold - it hurts me.

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politics are getting reeeeeaaaaly weird now, threats onObama's life via KKK,,i cant believe in 2008 we still have men in sheeets running around trying to start trouble..i say get a life!!!

i think sara P. is a negitive negitive person,,,and a shallow person ,,as many of the republiacans are,,i do recall TED HAGGART..and all the other repub's saying one thing and doing another,,

so hypocritical...discusting and sara is one of them,,i DONT TRUST HER AT ALL nor mcSAME either...hes ,,well,,how many times aday is he gonna say MY FRIENDS,,i hate that-

im gagging now!

saturday afternoon,,pleasant weather and i'm good for "nothing" and all im all emotional,,well,,we..me and kelly just got back from going to get kellys hair cut,,its SO CUTE,we found a new place to go,that some of the girls from work go to,,and they all have cute hair-sooooo kelly's hair is adorable-
i am not feeling good, im going to lay down now -i hurt real bad.
we both agree that the seriquil is not really doing me good,,i mean my face looks bloated again - my prednisone seems to have a conflict with this seriquil,,i can say its been great for sleep,,but damn,,i remember the NERUOTIN did the same thing too, puffy face, and slept all day ,,no ability to get going - AND seems to me that- my neck has been inflammed from the strt of the seriquil,,now it coud be a coinencedence but,,i think im scred opf the seriquil now,,damn, i always think its goning to get the ticket,,,but then have bad effects from all drugs,,im so sensitive to it,i guesss,>?
puffy face ad lathargy are the big things,,i acnt wke up at lland ioi dont wnna do aything either..why not,>? the weather is great,i hve so many ideas,,im scared - i htnk thats my problem,and i dont know wht to do,,my fingers hurt so bad right now to type i'm using only two-2 fingers to get it done ...10-4-over...come back....
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Can Rheumatoid arthritis cause depression?
In: Health
A:
Any chronic condition, especially painful ones, can increase your likelihood of becoming depressed. Conversely, depression may make many conditions worse. Treatment of both usually yields better effects than treating only one or the other.
ok then......just wondering...

its 1.30..i have YOGA at the center for disailitys at 2.30..ive staed low key so i can make it,,ive dusted the house, vaccumed a little,,and straightened out kellys closet,, all aesy stuff,, BUT im im so in painwith my neck still,,,what am i gonna do,,i thought this would be over by now,,im going n 3 weeks of serouis neck pain ,,i found out a bit today about another medical place i can go and probably get better attention then the morton deal,,(i never wanna go back there just gives me such a negitive feeelig . bad karma there for some reason) .....so this eve - tuesday ee at 5.00p i can go stand in line wihtthe rest of um and se what happens,,ifi do not or cannot do it,,from The RA,,then i HAVE to do it o thrusday nite,,5.00pm,,and go getinline,at some place i o have the addy,,i want to google thisplace first,,i alsoNEED to go back to the medical arts building where i went for mental help and recieved a "case worker",,(yeah-a good thing) im almost outta that seriquil so iguess i just go at 8.30 and stand in line there too,,woow,,what a different world,,from insured to uninsured,,, its reallllly hard when u do not have insurance or any money......its real hard. i donit thnk i can do yoga,,myneck,,oh my Aching neck!!!!!!!!!!!also neupathy has really been noticable too,,feet and hands running down my legs and arms,,so so weird,,,,i am to tired now,,must rest.. zzzzzz
heres the place fr medical help
http://tulsa.ou.edu/medicine/bedlam/index.htm

its very early on tuesday, heres what ive beeen doing withmy "spare time"
this cat is LOVED! BOOBOO has ringworm so ive been caring for all 3 try to control it all and its very hard to do,, and its wearing me out..but thats totaly OK as long as i win the battle and i am so far,,i just have to control it. bleach bleach bleach-
PEPPERS from our neighbor JAMES (love that nameJames)
we visited on saturday,,he came over to ask about our OBAMA signs,,tina gave him 2 of them,,tina went back to the democrat headquarters,,just round the block,,LOL! and bought all they had and we gave them out to our neighbors ((( its a OBAMA BLOCK))-nice feeling.
im growing african violets - Vicky is teaching me how to grow these delicate lil thaaangs... i swear if u touch a leaf on this it will die! they dont like to be touched at all,, but OH SO PRETTY-



im growing black pearl peppers
from patsy's seeds (its going well)
http://www.usna.usda.gov/Research/BlackPearl.html


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aboutthe RA:

click on pic to enlarge, places that very tender on my feet.
my NECK its the most bothersome now and its been a week maybe? seems like ive been complaining of neck pain now for some time,,,ohno,,im going crooked in my neck,, i will stop it somehow.
see the swollen area beside myfingers? Ooweeeee

my NECK is bad- it was hurting so bad yesterday((Monday) to the point of nausea again,,its swollen so badly ((i need a corticosteroid shot there ))))) OH MY GOD im up at 5.00 am i iced it to help.
Pain woke me up,,,or elvis did,,..either way,,i thought of my prednisone and how badly i want to take it!!!i got up gathered up meds = (2) 10mg. lexapro -- 17.mg. prednison (down from 20mg.)
(1) DARVON (only 65 mg - no biggy BUT THEY WORK)
i would just do IBUPROPHINE but my neck is painful,,need extra help. UG!!!!
Kelly had a look at my neck, she said " YES, U CAN SEE WHERE IT IS( in my spine) AND ITS SWOLLEN BEYOND the normal,,,i mean yes, U CAN SEE IT" so we took a few pics tyring to
capture it,,,look The RA monster on my spine,,,*scares me bad too gulp*

just checkin in,,im sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tired, i cannot blog now but im posting a picture and be back after this evening wheni have had some tie to rest,,ive been on a binge of NOTE TAKING and GOOD IDEAS that need to be listed,also ive been panting those flowers,,ive just been running crazy keepin up with bleaching everything and tending to elvis and baby and me and kelly,,- E has RINGWORM-SUPERBAD on the BACK of his neck,,mine is about gone,(had small spot on leg and arms) and of course star,,shes well HEALTHY omg=shes just so effing FUNI &cute and god im tired i gotTa go,,afeter uploading,,bbl
back and no better,i am exhausted, i have a pain in my neckthats been RA-ing for about 2 weeks now,,guess its gonna hunker down and eat away at my spine (picture pointing to the area above)

well, i was on my way outta here when i saw email that caught my eye,,about a lady struggling to get by with RA - sounds so much like my story and all the other stories i read about. so sad how we r getting screwed by the government by knowing this is a crippling disease that we cant control and stability is NO MORE_ and they deny our insurance for disability after all we paid into it after all!! ,,i am awaiting my court date in front of a judge too,,i wonder if i should show up in a hoover round- u know & neck-race too,,( i saw that in a movie LOL)
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http://www.ajc.com/metro/content/metro/atlanta/stories/2008/08/02/free_0803.html

Unable to work, Social Security has rejected benefits for woman
DALE FREE
By ANN HARDIE
The Atlanta Journal-Constitution
Published on: 08/03/08
~Dale Free liked working the deli counter at a Woodstock grocery store but lost that job in 2003 after a blood disorder landed her in the hospital.
Rheumatoid arthritis in her hands and knees and complications from diabetes have made it impossible for her to work ever since, she said.
with a cane. "I'm all the time dropping things because I hurt."
Free also suffers from anxiety, she said. She has plenty to be anxious about.
Social Security has turned her down for disability benefits twice since 2004.
Free has appealed and is waiting for a hearing date.
"There is not a human being who would look at this person and say that she is not disabled," said her attorney Ronald Lowry.
Meanwhile, Free lost her home after her husband of 28 years died from a stroke in 2005.
"We bought a mobile home and we thought we would be able to live in it comfortably for the rest of our lives," Free said. "It just didn't work out like that."
Her sister, Judy Crawford, took her in and buys her insulin and syringes. Free has no health insurance.
But Crawford can't afford Free's arthritis medicine. Or medicine to treat her high cholesterol and anxiety.
In fact, Crawford, too, is struggling financially. Her home is in foreclosure.
"She is trying to talk to the mortgage company so we won't have to move," Free said. "I do worry a lot and I cry a lot. But I wait until I am alone."
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THIS story is WAY-WAY-WAY to familiar--way-way-way SAD!! this is america,,but times are changing & what you thought was - is no more ////and now ?? is..is...is "sneaky doings "of ripping us all off - in the long run/ and BIG picture basicly - just watch,,im talking about food -im talking about our way of life here in america,,nomore, im talking -war possibly global,,who knows,,but shit is hittin' the fan and its blowing everywhere..im scared, kind of,,,, police stae and gobla control over everyone of us (thats left after upcomming population control-they want 1/3rds dead by 2012.