screenshot of my search that scared me....i read it all!

my computer is having issues,im with another virus i do believe-getting lots of weird crashes and
3 x my computer rebooted tself int SAFEMODE..i was like,,"wtf?" i am sure its a deep virus i have to scrub-dangIT!i hate this,,its the price i pay for exploring seeds,,,aka torrents.. and its worth it,,i JUST watched the film called Illuminati and their secret-space= WOW..its far out.!!! and i have a few other awesome downloads i cant wait to watch.i was in really bad shape yesterday RA was thriving in me,i could NOT walk on my feetbones at all,it hurt so bad i went insane im my head,,and just passed OUT after having to take serious dose of pain aids..
ITS REALLY REALLY UNUSUAL WEATHER going on here,,its like a friggen'minnesota-day!!!
its been just around 55. at nite and 60. during the day,its unbelievable,,,(if this is global weather modification, then i'm all for it ) sooo surreal ..this weather is just down right weird!

it late aftenoon its cold and rainy and snow may fall tonite,on our tulips!
this weather is crazy,we just got back from my "shrink" appt. she(dr grayson)knows leah hunt -my other MSW.small world.
~the car was in the shop,the water pump blew and its almost time for rent,we had no extra money and we were really stresing but my dad saved us .i love my dad.
this visit was set up by my atty, who needs this evaluation for court, i dont mind, i just tell it like it is,,the doctors all say im bi-polar and they recommend special medicine, im depressed i just want to feel better, ever scince i stopped working- i have felt awful about my self,,oh god i cant type anymore,,im super tired - wish that i had a keyboard that lets me speak the words while it types for me,,
BTW,alot of UFOs are being reported and guess what else??? IM Worried about the NEWS this morning, it looks like the government knows something we dont ...and they are getting ready for something BIG BIG BIG mark my words ppl!..according to reports from watchful people all over the usa we have over 100,thousdand coffins (plastic) and concentrationcamps set up all thru USA,you guys,,somethings going on and im alittle concerned,,if u dontknow about this ..im sorry,,but its scaRY TRUE.
IM not even gonna mention it again in writting,,,camps and coffins all thru america -
im not going to ever ever write about it going forward,,,im only going to read read read and watch watch watch - pay attn,get off my all meds and any type of depenancy on ANYTHING and get ready to RUN! very scary stuff..gulp.

these 2 are kleanin away! its five right now, and im up for prednisone lexapro and vitimans-(heard them mention codex on TV the otherday while reporting on vitimans and the future)

up way early due to a couple of furry creaTures playing on me at five AM -i have not been able to type at all -RA in hands and thumbs bad, and i have splits on fingers when i type-it hurts.(fingers)

its verry hard to use my hands for the past week- its only gotten worse and ive done all i can thinkof ((been wearing vasiline on hands and cloth gloves ))) and not doing alot w/my hands.

this is me before having to go talk to my shrink Tracy on tiuesday am at 9.00- i didnt feel good at alll and its cold now andi forgot how bad the cold can hurt me..i cannot just wear any l thing,i gotta bundel up and wear a hat sometimes and i MUST wear a scarf around my neck -mybody does NOT like the cold at all, Rheumatoid Arthritis and Cold air are enemies

~i picked kelly up yesterday at noon - shes off for the fri-sat-sun-now, and i am super glad, its way cold out,(20's) and i have been buzy with saving plants, i still have plants out front but they are wrapped and under alot of plastic. we may have to bring all of them in,,(OMG) we r just going along day by day, i cant imagine them surviving the whole winter w/o heat out there.

Dig this ol school phone-we luv it.

also have been under pressure from atty to fill out a SSSDI form, and get all evidence together to prepair for january 8th friday hearing SSDI - have a form that requires ALOT of attn from me,,ii have been working on it slowly ,question by question,(but have not filled outanything LOL) god im crazy-i really am,,they diagnosed me down at family and childrens and i feel bad -i told my shrink, that im felling weird about that, OHWELL,, really who cares,,im starving right now,,im gonna go checkonkats eat and go back tobed! (hi gloria)

neck is really giving me a hard time
elbows extreeeeeemly painful
hurtz here so badly
look @these two

good moring all u RA ppl ---i never came back yesteday,

i HAD TO rest BUT i MESSED UP SO BAD_ i was so under the influence of RA yesterday,,i felt so creepy and ill that i slept aaaaaall day ,,Kelly tried to call over and over and over,i never even heard the phone,,,untill about 2.00pm,, i heard kelly on the answer machine..and i finaly woke up . i answered the phone,,and she reminded me that i have a appt with the foodstamp people downtown,,SHIT! i slept right thru it,,i could have hobbeled down there,,but i was soo extremly tried and under the RA spell,,i had NO IDEA,, i was in bad pain,,

-knuckels hurt so bad

-FEET bones -HAND bones -HIPS and -MY NECK

our weather is changing today its windy and damp out

we have a storm comming,and colder weather too..i hate the cold - it hurts me.

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politics are getting reeeeeaaaaly weird now, threats onObama's life via KKK,,i cant believe in 2008 we still have men in sheeets running around trying to start trouble..i say get a life!!!

i think sara P. is a negitive negitive person,,,and a shallow person ,,as many of the republiacans are,,i do recall TED HAGGART..and all the other repub's saying one thing and doing another,,

so hypocritical...discusting and sara is one of them,,i DONT TRUST HER AT ALL nor mcSAME either...hes ,,well,,how many times aday is he gonna say MY FRIENDS,,i hate that-

im gagging now!