michelle is sooo pretty here

is it wed already? jesh,,
- i must say=i certainly feel alot better,even with the lower doses im taking, i predicted a smooth effort tho -if i do it slowly...
but prednisone is a different story, i dont know the risks or if i should get to 5 mg daily and keep it there,,i need to research that subject...for guidance. i only know the human body produces the natural prednisone and by me taking it artificially then my own body stopped producing it,,so i gotta figure out what the hell the deal is on this so i dont hurt myself weaning down,,,,they say i shouldn't be messing with it,,but i know my body,,and my body says get down as low as possible and hold it,,,,,until we can get off this stuff all together.

last time i was here was friday and ,,,,,time has gone by , alot has happened.
we went to dallas to see the king tut exhibit and get back very late sunday eve,,then monday i was SO tired from it all,, both kelly and i had the "burnING eyes thing" from NOT enuff sleep.
it was worth th trouble to drive down and see the display,,we were at the dallas museum from 11:00 am untill 6:00PM then walked down town o a cute Italian place were all 15 of us chowed on Italian food and stared out at the beautiful down town dallas,,(i wanna move there asap)
its happening down there,,its alive and theres alot of art and artist,,we'd fit right in.
NEVER EVER THOUGHT ID WANNA MOVE BACK TO DALLAS BUT I DO (AND SO DOES KELLY) THERE IS MONEY THERE, ITS BEAUTIFUL AND MILD WINTERS AND COOL PEOPLE.
as far as economy goes ...it didnt look like dallas was effected,,i mean big ol 'cranes everywhere buildings going up left and right and great streets with accurate signs to let you know where you are,,i loved it.
my RA seems to be better,,i endured it all and still feel OK,,like my neck swelling is going down and i just feel a little stronger, and able to pass on the afternoon nap (i hate napping) im just gonna hope this continues, because i like feeling better....as long as i dont over do it,,i am holding steady at this level of RA for now,,(its a break) WHEW! even my fnigers feel better, im able to type and all,,, i tt my dad,,,he said hes got cateracks too,,, its like looking thru fog,,and it sux,,its real bad for me and im super blind and my glasses dont even help,,i go without, cateracks need to go. i told someone i have caracks,,they said" arnt you alittle young for that>? ..YEP,,i am,,but its from the PREDNISONE! i have just got to get rid of this pednisone addiction.

this is not me but shows nodules on old ladies elbows,shit! it looks real bad,,,,im scared because im getting this,,, what sux about it - is it hurts so badly to become this shape - aLOT of pain went into making these elbows! lemme tell ya! and I KNOW! alll about those elbow pains-sometimes ya wanna just cutoff yer arms,,I KNOW ive said it,,"forgod sakes just take my arms off please!!!!!!!!!!"when the pain gets to be so bad.

crazy kitten starbaby (gotta luv her)


yesterday-Sarah Palin made her first appearance on the Rush Limbaugh show on Tuesday, OMG how desparate can u get? rush is a freak -
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Yesterday i had a visit with dr. juju (i really really like her)i told her im tapering off the pred,down to 17mg...she said better if i do 5 mg..i read that online about tapering off prednison too,,
i am so sensitive to the prednisone im starting tomorrow down to 15mg and go from there,,,doctor juju said good ..she didn't like the skin on my arms either--- plus bones and teeth,,she insisted i take mega calcium-i told her i DO already,,and i do religiously ,, i take vitamin d and folic acid and whatever else is available...PREDNISONE has gotta be decreased ..it may help my depression as well,,i read online that years of prednisone can mess w/ your mind as well as your body! also she wants me to come back next month to see dr kusi for the klonipin,,my new prescription has 60 instead of 90 and i was NOT told anything about tapering off,,god knows i need those "Klonipin" pills or i just freak out "in-panic" over just anything..im just outta wack,,i sure wish i knew how i got this way,,/ im worried about them lowering my dose cuz those pills dont do much for me so i have to take 2- two of them- just to feel a little calmer and thats when i run out before the month is up,,scary situation! dependency again --i NEED to NOT 2be dependant on any pills actually when all this world falls apart and i cant get to any drugs ...........
(if McCAIN IS ELECTED) = i will suffer from no access to anything at all -,,this is why i am tapering off the prednisone NOW ....welll,,,,now i should taper off the klonipin too i guess,, i have enuff Klonipin's for now so im not to worried and i can ALWAYS "take it to the streets" if i have to" damn it!