when i see her in the morning i say,,look, shes grown over nite

im here and it took awhile for me to get going, it hurt to walk on my feet.
i just got back from dropping K off. i am worried about money again, im trying to sell things we dont need, like the mitre saw downstairs and the black antique chairs from patsy-- right now, no ONEs buying anything,craigslist is slow and tulsa sells and recycles is slow- no ones buying.
i still am on a news ban,due to the anxiety it creates, the weather has cooled down abit-more like fall now,,im hoping it stays like this until time for winter,that would be nice. i cant stand the heat on methotrexate - i just step out for a second and i bust out in this awful sweat,its so unbearable.
worried about the info i find everywhere,hes a craigslist memo i stumbled on to and read it word for word, (back to stashing stuff in the basement for survival):
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New World Order (Everywhere)
Date: 2009-08-27, 10:41PM MDT
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EVERYONE! After years of conspiracy theorists screaming about the New World Order, those like Michael Moore and Alex Jones were labeled "Nuts" by the general media. However, as recently as July 2009, an Austrian journalist named Jane Bergermeister has published information and filed criminal charges with the Austrian government and the US FBI claiming that FEMA, WHO (world health organization), Obama Administration and an Austrian pharmaceutical company named Baxter are trying to commit mass genecide by unleashing a bio-weapon (the H1N1 virus); other scientists who confirm her story that the H1N1 virus was genetically engineered by Baxter (and the WHO group); she also claims that Obama and FEMA will declare Marital Law and force upon the American public - a lethal vaccination (also created by Baxter) causing mass genecide. Other sources confirm that any resistors will be taken to FEMA death camps - concentration camps worse than the NAZI concentration camps. The FEMA trains are designed to house hundreds of people (in shackles) and to gas people right in the compartments; the FEMA camps have no accommodations for housing, dining or sleeping quaters - ONLY gas chambers and incinerators; (watch the youtube videos and see for yourself). In recent speeches, Obama and his administration have voiced overtures of Martial Law; he and his new health care advisers are advocating euthenasia. How much clearer can the signs be. By all credible reports from scientists, civil rights watch groups, investigative (foreign journalists, we are about to be in a STATE OF EMERGENCY within the next few weeks! Obama and FEMA will be declaring Martial Law in about 3 -6 weeks! (no later than October - if that!) THIS IS NOT A JOKE! PASS THIS ON TO AS MANY PEOPLE AS YOU CAN! DO YOUR OWN RESEARCH ! Giving up ONE night of TV to do a little homework - could literally save your life; and your family! Attached is an html file with a list of BOOKMARKED links - From reputable VERIFIED sources about the upcoming MARTIAL LAW that is ABOUT to be perpetrated on the AMERICAN PEOPLE - in order to take over this country and SUSPEND the US Constitution! THERE IS NO BIRD FLU Pandemic - except the one that was genetically engineered by Baxter Pharmaceutical, FEMA and WHO; They will then make it MANDATORY that people take (deadly) VACCINE - which will kill people; Those who resist will be taken to FEMA "detention" camps (and really death camps)! Many in Congress are unaware of FEMA's & Homeland Security Agency's Plans, but factions of the US Gov -under the guise of FEMA have been planning these Concentration Camps for Years! They plan to use Martial Law to murder American Citizens and decrease the population! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YyQvXZzAa3M&feature=related Check out the LINKS in the attachment - watch the videos! I repeat - THERE ARE DEATH TRAINS - to take people to DEATH CAMPS Not work or detention camps (there are NO Housing Accommodations , just gas chambers and incinerators!; They don't even have those in Guantanamo Bay -for the REAL terrorists! so what the HELL are these facilities doing on AMERICAN SOIL ! ?? for YOU and YOUR FAMILY! That's who! Google REX87; Again, These videos are DOCUMENTED EVIDENCE by reputable scientists, JOURNALISTS and congressmen; This is not hype, this is not crazy; this is not radical talk! THIS IS REAL! We are going to experience FAR WORSE than what was perpetrated by Nazi Germany during WWII It will most likely take you a few hours to go through the links. Be sure to watch all of the Youtube videos, first in order to get a quick overview of what's going on. (SEE the criminal complaint filed by Austrian Journalist, Jane Bugermeister against FEMA, and Baxter Pharmaceuticals); http://www.theflucase.com/downloads/Microsoft_Word__Criminal_Charges__Swine_flu_edits_v2_1_.pdf BUT ONCE THINGS START TO HAPPEN- and there is a military presence in your area - DO NOT ! I REPEAT ... DO NOT! EXPOSE YOURSELF TO ARREST! go into seclusion; do not voice protests (by yourself) ! do not voice anti-government sentiments! ( pack what you can carry (backpacking) just take your family and LEAVE! - or join neighborhood watch groups! Hopefully there will be still some remaining in Government or Congress who can take action and suspend this ILLEGAL Martial Law. If you act alone - YOU WILL BE SINGLED OUT! ARRESTED, TAKEN TO FEMA CAMPS - AND KILLED! What you CAN do is write only trusted REPRESENTATIVES IN Congress! (one is Rep. Peter DeFazio - Oregon, and those congressmen on the Homeland Security Committee) send them links to information! Do it anonymously if you have to! They're probably asleep at the wheel if they are in office and they are not aware of these FEMA Concentration Camps! or what FEMA, Obama, and Clinton have been planning all along! But there ARE STILL some people in CONGRESS that are honest and decent citizens who want to uphold the US Constitution! Maybe it's too late for them to do anything now??! Maybe they still can??! ! There are still some in the military who have no idea why or WHAT the buildup IS FOR! They truly believe there is a "natural" Swine flu epidemic! They that THINK they are doing the right thing! You won't KNOW WHO you're dealing with! DO NOT TAKE ANY SHOTS OR VACCINES! DO NOT ALLOW YOUR CHILDREN TO BE VACCINATED! IF YOU ARE FORCED- MAKE A SCENE! IN PUBLIC! How can you take action to protect your family? 1) start hoarding some CASH NOW! and things to trade or barter - jewelry, staples, gold, etc. for immediate TRADE; they won't be much good afterward when Martial Law is enforced. 2) Start STOCKING UP and buy at LEAST 1 or 2 MONTH'S WORTH OF WATER, FOOD STAPLES, canned goods (fresh vegs & fruit but won't last long) (Ensure, Gator Ade, canned vegs, Powdered Milk, bottled water or a REVERSE OSMOSIS WATER SYSTEM, Protein Powder, beans, rice, pre-packaged vacuum sealed food if you can get it online); CANDLES, CANNED GOODS! BATTERIES, FIRST AID ITEMS, CRITICAL MEDICATIONS; masks (gas mask, tyvek suit, filter masks) (all utilities, phone, TV, internet will most likely be suspended). (after that you will most likely be mobile on foot); Do not drink TAP WATER or store bought bottled water AFTER the Martial Law is declared! FILTER YOUR OWN - with a portable commercial grade - REVERSE OSMOSIS UNIT! One that you can take with you - if you are mobile. BUY NON-GMO SEEDS PACKETS ONLINE! (many new seed are terminator seed and will not grow new plants from the seeds of that harvest of plants. or they will have no new seeds at all); they will try to starve the masses; stock up! Find an underground shelter or places to hide/hoard food if possible. 3) at the first signs of trouble - on the news or in your neighborhood -STAY HOME FROM WORK! KEEP YOUR KIDS OUT OF SCHOOL! 4) IF YOU ARE TOLD TO EVACUATE - DO NOT GET INTO TRAINS -OR FOLLOW THE CROWDS! TAKE YOUR FAMILY AND FLEE ON YOUR OWN ! do NOT be herded WITH CROWDS; 5) If you can afford a short wave radio or HAM radio and a CB radio- GO BUY ONE! now! (the internet will probably be suspended); GPS unit (will probably not work for very long - they may jam the satellites); a compass; satellite phone (although probably won't work for long); a LORAN (yes, an old fashion boat LORAN system); 6) If you can afford a small diesel generator or hydro (water) generator - buy one! maybe a small one that you can carry; portable sterno units; matches, lighters. 7) Same - if you can afford to buy a small portable (mobile) solar powered appliance recgarger or phone recharger - so that you can carry it with you! (forget your cell phones! they won't work! batteries); (there are water powered batteries -(hydro electric batteries) online - if you are serious survivalist - these are worth it); 8) This may sound nuts but, search out caves; or go to a remote island or country; if you can, hire a sailboat with a captain if you don't know how to sail); or if you know someone with a sailboat - better make some plans for a LONG TRIP! again get an old fashion LORAN system; again - satellites will be jammed and the newer systems won't work! a good reliable "chronagraph" watch and a good compass will do just as well! (read the book "Longitude" to learn how to use them); if you can afford a vacation - go sometime in Sept - before things start to happen. 9) survivalist or camping equipment - Swiss army knife/tool set; 10) PORTABLE water purifier; with extra filter cartridges 11) maps & survivalist manuals 12) GUNS - Look what happened during Katrina - looters, crazies; If people stick together during this time- and help one another - we WILL SURVIVE this! We can lie low - and peacefully help one another, and wait out the "FLU"; if FEMA authorities come for YOU or your family (for no reason) you KNOW they are up to no good! - YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO PROTECT YOURSELF. IF you are able to FIGHT - do so! EVEN WITH UN TROOPS ALREADY STATIONED HERE ON AMERICAN SOIL ...#1 THEY ARE OUT NUMBERED BY US! #2 It is against the US constitution for American Troops or foreign troops for that matter - take up arms against American Citizens on American Soil; AS AMERICAN CITIZENS WE HAVE THE RIGHT TO BEAR ARMS. WE HAVE THE RIGHT TO FILE CRIMINAL CHARGES AGAINST TREASONOUS ACTS AGAINST THE US CONSTITUTION. FEMA IS UNCONSTITUTIONAL! FORCED VACCINATION IS A VIOLATION OF OUR CIVIL RIGHTS! http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Second_Amendment_to_the_United_States_Constitution THE SECOND AMENDMENT OF THE US CONSTITUTION GIVES US THE RIGHT TO BEAR ARMS UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES. Use it or lose it people! REMEMBER WE OUTNUMBER THEM! DON'T BE HERDED TO DIE IN A DEATH CAMP! 13) again - things will probably start to take place around Sept / October - Keep your kids & family close to home; listen to your shortwave radio - PBS (public radio, Alex Jones, or any other trustworthy internet news source; if people start to go "missing" or it is reported that people are disappearing (most likely prominant outspoken talk hosts who speak out against FEMA or the Obama Administration - BE PREPARED to take your family - and leave! Go somewhere remote; if you are still able to leave - take a vacation to FIJI or some remote place; but get the HELL out of town while you can still leave! FIND CAVES; visit a foreign country (Asia, France said it WILL REFUSE TO DECLARE MARTIAL LAW); DRIVE remote roads (or motorbike); hike, take a sailboat, a private plane, or any unusual means of transportation that you can - Because you will most likely be taken custody at public airports; YOUR CELLPHONE CAN BE TRACKED! ditch it! 14) If you don't already OWN A GUN - GET ONE! iT'S ALSO a good idea to start taking some shooting lessons. join a shooting range or a gun club! 15) PRAY; PRAY ALONE; PRAY IN GROUPS; joint MASS PRAYER groups! It worked during WWII - it will work AGAIN! If you do nothing... (if you do not even research this to see if this is all real) - you will probably join the masses - for whatever they have in store --- for you!
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CHEMTRAILS started up again /heavy last night,just as dusk,,the Sky's were covered,and by the way it looked when the sun arose,,i saw OLD chemtrails,,that were thick as pie and just hanging everywhere,,all thru the horizon an i feel really anxious i feel really RA'd out,, and im swollen bad in hands and feet, neck and shoulders.

ive been so "unable this morning until this very moment,,im having sever nausea and hot flashes that wont go away ,,i woke up this morning at 5.30 am to stagger for pain aids,,my feet and hands will not stop with the radiating pain (RA) i cant walk to well,my joints in my feet are just no good,,i cant walk with out anything on my feet,im a barefoot girl too,,,its just not my style, this RA business.
so i am looking for a dentist now that can wok w/ me,,i have to get my old tooth pulled fromk my back,,and my prednisone makes my teeth chip so badly that i just MUST have some order restored in my mouth before i go crazy, i keep bitting my toung from where my crown fell off and the tooth is so sharp under there,,damnit its always something... im like a old car now,,everythings starting to go,,LOL! but its true,,even tho my mind thinks im only Ohh about thirty now,, i dont know about this growing up thing,,and how to do it,,i can only be myself and its a little immature,,but i NEVER would want to hurt anyone adn judge anyone or be evil in anyway,,i care about how i make ppl feel,,i enjoy happy times with all,,even when im crtynig and laying i8n the hospitial,,i still crck up the doctor an make kelly laff too,, im just a suilly girl,,and its just crazy that i have to see my body falling apart while i used to have it all under control,,and and i was so strong and healthy,,shit i feel like my insides hurt,(organs) and it makes me think im gonna die and i should make out my will,,, i must take time to think of all my people and (past and present) and make out some paper type will that ensures people i KNOW GET a peice of me after im gone,,i hope i come back as a happy kitten in a real nice house and all i do for twenty years is live- enjoy eat-streeeeech - play- sleep- catch a bug or two-
and watch the people who own me just spoil the crap outta me,,(like we do to star-e-and booboo) its calle KARMA, u get what you deserve,,,,that attitude keeps me good.
just look at her(star) hard life,

happy Bday to you little starbaby

today is stars birthday,,shes is now offficaly one year old,who would have thoughtthis lil creature could bring such joy to my heart and soul. god truly sent her for a reason, shes so lovely,she really is ( im going on and on about a lil kitten-whew )i thank god for her.

im with swollen everything this morning,,i did not sleep well last nite at all- i am having hot flashes like crazy , i woke up very hour or so, to squirm around and escape my R.A .pain..

hands are very swollen neck is outta control and feet hurt to walk on them,,,

pics when i get back fromdowntown,,i needt o catch up here w/ alot of stuff

like ther oomate deal(OMG)

and hospitial visit, and how allergies r stirring up my RA why?

i hurt to look ..i mean my eyes hurt to see, does that make sence? yes i think so

this kitten is SO funni

shes sompthin' else

have not seen orbs lately,,today i see a orb

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im soo sedated -slept hard,,had more nightmares -cant remember most of my dreams but i remember being scared in my dreams and running from something,,im under the influence of darvon so my neck and collar bone wont hurt too bad, i briefly woke up at 6.00 am to take my prednisone,,i went back to sleep until nine AM-that really helped,my neck stopped hurting so bad/that's the ONLY way i can keep RA under control is thru Xtra sleep and i hate that,,because im sleeping my life away,but ,i have to,,i have no choice,,i get 2 a point where i cant do anything and i must go lay down for about 3-4 hours.. now its 3.30..im just going w/the flow today,,im NOT going to get all worked UP by trying
control things that i have no power over,,but i say this,,im doing all i can to stay above water,,i want to JUST GO get a Job,,any ol job,,, but GDit....i cant very well do that,,unless a miracle happens-we eed our car fixed,,we need clothing,,we need food,,we need support,,we dont have ny of those things,,so it allgoes to kelly forher job - we put everything in to getting her to POE and with a lunch or at least money to eat lunch ...and at 4.30,,the day isover i pick her up and i feel soo much better after ive taken that nap,,
and if i do not nap,,i am so in pain that nite,,so i feel guilty sleepin around like that,,,,i mean all day ,,its so depressing - we gotta figure out what we r gonna do about this house,,we cant afford it anymore,,we cant make it,ive cut out all the extras,,i never ask for anything 4 me
i dont even have a decent pair of shoes to walk in OR slippers for walkin around,oh well,,ill come up with somehthing,, i hope...i am really sensing things,,change and im scared ,,we are not sure what to do,,but i feel the stress and i cant bare it- its to heavy - i cried the whole time at the new shrinks place,,she worked so hardto keep me in focus,i really could not control myself,,i just let it allout there,,then she kept lookin at the wall clock ,,so id stop what i was saying and ask,,
"what was the question again?"
hehe,,i was serious too,,i could not remember anything.
i was kind of embarressed as i left,i told her i was sorry,,and she saidNO ,,donot be sorry,,u were expressing yourself and nothing to be sorry about,,,,, good,,im glad.

good vibes for obama BAD VIBES for mCsame....

this morning!

she does the cutest things,,( she is a lil'jihad ) she can tear it UP! lemme tellya,i wonder if shes going to calm down soon..i HOPE so! im so tired of hearing elvis HISSSsss at her,, she chases boboo & Elvis thru the house and its like a heard of buffalos runnin thru here- i

gotta just laff because ,heres this little kitten-aka terrorist,,chaseing 5 yr old male tuff cats

(e and Boo) running for their lives from her,,,its sofunni...

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Obsessed with the election: yep.

as a political junkie, i cant bear staying too far away from NPR or CNN.

the race is getting intense,,i noticed michelle obama was not wearing any make up on david lettereman last night- - and she said she didnt spend too much money on her"JCREW" outfit,heheee (i LOVEjcrew) i am voting for barack and michelle because its the less of two evils.

Id love to believe that barack is a real person and REALLY ON OUR SIDE -but he has to prove it,,i KNOW JOHN MCSAME is NOT the one i want in the whitehouse. sorry "my friends",,

he will rip america apart,,and believe me,,HE WILL continue the BUSH-doctrine. which is one world goverment and police state and take away our right to bear arms,,and live and speak freely without persicution , if i spelled that right....?.... we will be persicuted if john mcsame gets elected...........................................................i will absolutly freak out if he wins - i think its all rigged anyways sooo,,

*remember what is= ISNT... and what isnt =IS,,
~ trust no one (fox mulder) ~

on UFOs....no "new" news yet,,but Pennsylvania is geting LOTS of activity and Stevensville Texas, is active in the last week = CNN even reported on it.,LOTS of new witnesses who claim they all saw huge UFO back in Stevensville,Tx, (NOT TO FAR FROM ME here in tulsa ok.) alsothis is not too far from george W bush's ( our sapossed president) ranch as well,, weird huh?

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Sarah Palin Supports New 9/11 Investigation

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tell me NO,, ( i totaly believe that 911 was a inside job) im starting to like this lady,,even tho shes a creatoinist,,(thinks the world is ONLY 6000 yrs old)

what a beautiful day,this is what i call minnesota weather,,when the sky is blue as blue can get,,and the big white clouds are soooooo pretty ,,i want to paint that onto canvas and on my bathroom ceiling,,-! i would have already had done the ceiling art,,but it cost money and we dont have any- not complaining,,just stating,,i wish
so badly i could work,,when i say that,,kelly says,,but u cant even stay awake for one full day,,shes right too, i just dont know - its 12.noon and im super sleepy,,again,,
but star is/me andihad totake movies of her,,shes growing and being so darned CUTE - ohgod she's cute -ouch,,she bit me,



friday late afternoon-4.20pm,all is fine (i slept),,i went down to P/U K and all was well,no isssues & happy happy joy joy -its friday,--but,...but...?
but *something* went wrong and then hell was the word for about most of the eve,, suckedtheBigOne.

ive been ripVAN winkel again,,i cannot getoverthe lethergy i am having,,all is dragging and if i see the bed,,i just go numb and i become so tired i myust lay down,,whats thaaaaaaat all about,,ive exprerenced this before but its been awhile,i mean i am T-i-r-e-d! beyond tired,,its like ive been drugged,hey! waitAAminuet,,i AM being drugged,,i wonder if it has anything to do with that "S" drug i started taking? ive not really paid any attn to it,
i like to just go with the flow - THEN if medical issues POP UP from whats NEW in my collection,,well,,i simply know its "that new drug "and will evaluate it on weither its worth it or not,,my elbows HURT..and my feet hurt,that area around my spine between sholders,U KNOW same ol -sameol---but at least i feel well rested,,because i selpt right past my YOGA CLASS 2DAY(tear - i love that class)......... i really was dresses to go and ll,,i just did not wake up-

very early this am -4.00am- = i certainly did awaken this baby kitten running around in circles on my chest,,STAR-she gets up sooo early. and she comes to get me while im snoring along at 4.00 am ...............
but LOOK at her tho,awwwwwwwwwww:
adorable,,but thats not starOMG! funni
i am serious here folks....
OK..... heres the baby......she looks real sweet BUT its a scam!!!
she is as wild as W-i-l-d can get -then OH oooohhhsoooo sweet & cute then shes UP and frunning in circles rond and to catch her tail-shesjust a baby ............ and we love her so much.
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whats going on politically is crazy man - crazy !!!-like this QUICK grab a female for vice- pres,,just to copy the dems,,OMG how OBVIOUS HES SO SO so stupid [-i swear - if anyone votes for him U R blind and i promise this country will go police state in a record time,,i mean like OVER NIGHT ...if u enjoy your freedom- you'd better vote democratic,,LOOK IVE been registered REPUBLICAN for as long as i could vote-,,but i do NOT rekognize the party any more,its turning into such a "nazi -than",,i swear to GOD ! (i am embareesssed and ashamed for most of our republian electorials,,in all postiions at all levels,,just ashamed )
i read alot on political isssues nd what have u -and alexjones : infowars.com - i know its "bias" but whatever,,
http://www.rightwingnews.com/ for right view,,ug! uptight and hipocritacal
http://viewsfromtheleftcoast.blogspot.com/ for the left side of things
NPR. for the middle ((my fav. 4 ever)))
http://www.npr.org/

its Friday! and I'm exhausted now at 9.00 am.I've been running around trying to keep up w/2 cats a baby and a girl trying to get ready for work,, and now I'm like seeing double -and fighting to stay awake,,i have everything under control and i want to go photo plants for sale-and i cant seem to get the energy.damn.
~i must take a second to catch my breath now~

well,im backat 1.30 pmi slept then somehting woke me up,,i cheked on littleOne,,shes still asleep in the chair when i left her this am,,
i woke her up and she was soooo loving to me,,puuurrring and getting aLL SNUGGLY WITH ME,,IVE never seen her do that before ... cuet as ever! she really is somthin' else!
ONE THING my RA is bringing about is a bad case of Agoraphobia is an anxiety disorder, often precipitated by the fear of having a panic attack in a setting from which there is no easy means of escape. ...
UG! yep,,its bad,,im scared of my own shadow! LOL!
The word agoraphobia is derived from Greek words literally meaning "fear of the marketplace." The term is used to describe an irrational and often disabling fear of being out in public.

sounds like me alright,,and i gotta go to the effing market place right now,,i had to take a full klonipin and stand outside for awhile inorder to face the task,,i wonder why i get like this,,it comes on real bad outta nowhere too,,,,ill be fine and OK out and about,,but then allof a sudden,,out of the feeling of somehting so scary,,i cannot descibe it,,i could probably paint the feeling better then describe it,,but i am not into that kind of art,,i lke beautiful things,,only!

-this is where i found her when i let her go with the boycats out on the porch-CUTE..it took awhile for me to find her,,i brought her back in and placed her into hr own soft bed...


i am again worn OUT! -OMG kitten star got into something - she fell or we dont know what happened ,,,all i knw is i discovered that she wasnt commingh for food and thought WHA???????????? that's just weird and whats wrong, and sure enuff she was injured,,she had a BAD-limp on hind leg(the leg w/ the gold toe) and she hadnt eaten for I DONT KNOW HOW LONG i went into "full protecton mother mode" and well,,HAPPY as all to say she is BETTER toady =




i had to sleep with her - or beside the big kennel to keep close by-,,force feed her,, place her into litter box and when done cover it for her,,she watched everything i did,,she looked at me with such a sick and hurtfull feeling i broke down and had to just go vcry ,,i then PRAYRED for my lordjesus tohelp and save and heal her and protect her --and praise GOD ..this morning she came out of the kennel on her own and WAS JUST SITTING IN THE DOORWAY LIKE -HELLO KELLY AND DEBI,,WHAT CAN I EAT?,,we just adore her and love her and she is sooo in my heart now,,god we LOVE HER!

its 6.00 now (AM that is) i do best in the mornings,i sit awhile then slowly launch into fast gear with my mind on 100 things i must do NOW so,,i wear myself out,, and wonder why im always in a flare,,i have felt better tho,,lately has not been super painful,, my meds all help alot and you learn how valuable they are when you DO NOT HAVE THEM!!!
OMG at about 4.00pm yesterday my tooth feel out - my tooth thats up front-,,i have a pic(embaressed to go anywhere now) i gotta find out why my optionos are i just want the tooth bonded back to look normal,,no crown,,fuck that shit,whos got athousdand dollars for that? if i had a grand id buy kelly a pair of sunglasses (she needs them so badly) and id buy me some make up and a haircut before a fuckiing thousand dolllar tooth went into my mouth,,
OK next on the blog-list is:
depression..can we talk? i have had no counceling for a LONG TIME i do have an appt comming up with a new shrink at family and children services -i need a session bad!!
i should create a bullit point list of a few things that i belive are at the bottom of my troubles..example' #1) CANT ASK FOR HELP - FIND IT REAL HARD TO ASK ANYONE FOR ANYTHING - ITS LIKE IM GONNA GET YELLED AT FOR ASKING,,-MUST BE A STAIN FROM CHILDHOOD AND MOM-ug!
kelly JUST woke UP,,gottago now to help her out

this is so effing cute it hurts,,,stop being so cute star-babyayeaye~im tryig this out its TECHnorati AND im going to install it to my blog now.
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Ive been totally SICK lately... b/c we found a baby kitten last Saturday an its been all i can do to keep up with the baby,,shes a little 4-5 weeks old and we have spent bill money to have her looked at by the vet -we DON'T want to endanger our cats Elvis and scottyboobear,,so she (the baby) had a worm in her head,,YEP a WORM called a warble ..from a BOTFLY ,,she must have been stranded for all her life until we found her crying in a TREE across the street and no one would help her,,Xcept US,,god SENT her to US its a gift from god but shes got ringworm and botfly worm and the vet at southern ag,,named DR WOLF treated her and took VERY good care to remove the worm,,,she OK NOW and then with her being OK sort of,,i just allowed all that RA to just come up and bite me from the activities of caring for a BABY!! some clips and pics,: