banged up because im so blind (need glasses bad)

this is the worlld we want to live in,,,andy griffith world,,we love this SHOW !!
life is so hard with rheumatoid in yer way of things,,
we r trynig so hard to make it,,car is down NO $
-but we r lillies of the valley - i will create blessed art and sell it for money -
this lil blessing keeps us sane...we have a family to take care of ..must fight to hang on for US!!

well the news is even scarier today,,we DO HAVE some tools in the garage,,i call it the "barn" tho,,,it looks lie a barn i wish it was a barn,,, i wish we LIVED IN THECOUNTRY! and had some land BUT hey- we gotta HOE and we gotta shovel,,,hehehe and a pick/hacker thingy to break ground for a garden - i think its good for mental and physical health anyways ,,to have small garden for some simple things like potatos and carrorts and other,,i know how to blanch and pressure cook adn i know abut "Rootcellers" ,,well,ive seen it done and kelly grew up on a BIG produce farm,,she knows alot about growing & harvest so thats just great,,we need to get a plan and go for it,,about the guns tho,,shit that Scares me cuz im diagnosed depressed,,and i know for godsake i AM! and so is kelly too,,i just take pills to control mine-she cant,,shes already tried all the lexapro the others,,they fuck w/ her head more then the depression so she really cant take them,,and shes tried them all ,,believe ME!
so a gun is dangerous around two crazy women,really UNLESS we had it locked somewhere off of these premises and we could get to it under "emergancy times"...otherwise its no good to have a gun,,
i saw this this morning CNN =
and thought about the gun and said NOPE! not a good idea for us:





*i dont EVEN wanna see our stock today,,,, im not even going to look ,,its probably we owe them now