this weekend was a rainy and lazy and i felt sick most of the weekend.

i slept alot and this weather is muggy. NOW for monday its a clear blue sky and the air felt fresh and cool i feel OK today except hands and feet as usual. still doing 20 mg prednisone and thats it,,,except sleep,and ive been doing alot of that. not to soundlike im just a lazy bum or anything- anyone who knows me knows that im ADD/HD thats why i cant gain weight i need to be at 120 but im at 108 average.....i have NO CLOTHES that fit,,i make everything up as i go and even have sewn up the bottoms of some pants just to have bottoms to wear.... im without any kind of income ..WE had just been ripped off for 800.00 on that blue/green honda, (repair job) we're trying real hard to deal with that situation, the guy blantently ripped us off and wont take responsiblity for his screwed up .. it happened about 3 weeeeks ag and IM JUST NOW ABLE to talk about it ///this is a why i see a shrink know what im sayin?///lemme tellya,,,,just when ya think everythings under controll,,its NOT! and i wonder why im ina flare all the damn time

this ra has NOT let up and im only relying on prednisone to keep ra under controll,,i NEED to be under a doctors care but i have no nsurance and no money -i am unable 2 work,even tho i fool myself sometimes,,and say imgonna get a job,,then i get sick for 4-5 days. crying over the hurtfull hands and hurtfull feet,,they have never stoped hurting and

then my pills kick in,and i act like im good for the next year,,,well,,4 hours later im wipped out.

IF i dont nap during the day,OMG im such a mess at night .,,kelly said for the sake of all of us please take a nap, in a funni way ofcourse but its true because i will just start to cry over anything and act like a big baby, when i take a nap- the evenings seem to go alot soother,,