my painting so far 
Showing posts with label art. Show all posts
Showing posts with label art. Show all posts
Friday, April 30, 2010
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
this cute lil kitten named star
ifinished this painting and tried to scan it ( doesnt look that good via scan)
well,,im sending this to my mom, its called " windy "
and it could be better but i just got impatient as usual.
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something is happening to me,,i feel like im seeing things for the first time and i DONT LIKE IT,,i am super Unhappy and hard to fake it any more. WHY is this happening to me,,i just want to go to sleep and stay that way,,i dont want to wake up ever!
my soul is bothered and im not happy with where i am anymore,,and whats been going on,,im rotting away and noone can help. im slipping into a deep place and i am afraid i will not pull out of it this time,,i feel like just going to sleep, or going to another place another world, where people are kind and true and you dont need to be young and pretty to survive. its all fading away and i cant imagine where all this is going other then down down down into that pit - shit- i wish i could just be happy and secure but fact is,,im sinking and noone can help me.
i have no energy,,i cant think straight and i am just existing ,,im not living.just weird as hell,,,i mean i feel WEIRD!
Monday, November 02, 2009
so now its 10.40 am,,ive been worried and thinking and aksing myself,how can i be a better person? just how do i play this game? i can never recall communication and just floating thru any old day with so much trouble,and unable to even understand whats going on with everything?
is my mind playing tricks on me ? am i being over dramatic? whats wrong with me? what am i doing wrong,i want to know so i dont do it again or at least make a effort to be conciderate of anyone else and everyone else ... i dont want foolish ideas or thoughts,i want to be logical and understND whats whaT-- but i feel confussed and scared and like i have to do something,,but i dont know what.
im painting a picture of leaves and the wind. if i had a camera ,id post a sample but no camera.
i can put all of my heart into it and hope for the best - im using acrylic because i have soo many colors. im sitting out on the fro nt porch and enjoying the sun and nice weather we are having
(50 degree nites and 65 degree days) so i was here and its all quiet,, ive been without TV on during the days because i just dont want all those prescription and insurance commercials bombarding me any more,i can do with out any TV.
is my mind playing tricks on me ? am i being over dramatic? whats wrong with me? what am i doing wrong,i want to know so i dont do it again or at least make a effort to be conciderate of anyone else and everyone else ... i dont want foolish ideas or thoughts,i want to be logical and understND whats whaT-- but i feel confussed and scared and like i have to do something,,but i dont know what.
im painting a picture of leaves and the wind. if i had a camera ,id post a sample but no camera.
i can put all of my heart into it and hope for the best - im using acrylic because i have soo many colors. im sitting out on the fro nt porch and enjoying the sun and nice weather we are having
(50 degree nites and 65 degree days) so i was here and its all quiet,, ive been without TV on during the days because i just dont want all those prescription and insurance commercials bombarding me any more,i can do with out any TV.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
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