if this is it,,then why even try to find happines OR bother wiht politics- they dont give one simple shit about us .... this is the news today. im loosing hope.

things r bad and its gonna get alot wose then we thought (its what undergound says) no where near thru falling and the CNN and other news is trying to cover it up.

so sad,,at least i had the seventies to remember
god thoise were the glorydays parting eiht all the bands like areosmith and all,,

dwight yokam and hewey lewis and devo,,they spent the weekend w/ me and my sister mary

Oh great shot- im not able to cope much anymore,,attn span is gone and im running myself around scared to death of it all.
a thousand dollar tooth fell out (its got a silver peg in it )

it just keeps comming doesnt it,,i gotta log that i was starving,i made a quick fold.over peanutbutter and after trhe first bite,,i dont even wanna say it,,i lost another tooth right in front of my own eyes,,the tooth behind my dogtooth (lower left) fell right outta my mouth, and i cried and cried and was horrified-

i seem to be holding it together now,but i was not ok just 10 minuets ago,i need rest but im so upset with myself and my situation

i have no camera anymore,,i dropped it 2 x's and its not just booting up anymore, it has expired

- i am using the kodakcrap,,one picture a day is all its good for. propriatary battery is dead, no replacing it either -

i wanted to love him,,buuuut,,,????

omgod,im soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fustrated .i cant do anything becuze i canr see wanything,no,art,,no sewing, i only get hurt,mentally and physically,i get hurt trying to sew i cant see any thjing at all,,,
i want my life back now before i throw it all away,i cant handel the heat / i,m too hot all the time and if i am not hot im too cold with a wet feeling ,.,im squriming always, tying tohold my act together
i do think that this is the WORST year of my whole fucked up life,,i cant bare much, and im faLLING APART, AND HAVE TO not be like this when kell is hewre or it just oisses her off,,i cant express any fustration,i mu8st smile and be poliyte always,, its very hard when u feellleke a fucking failure,i cant see anything,,i cant get it fixed,,i got my turn down letter again and it said if i can blog i can work,,riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii ght,,does he know how long it took me to just see the keys and i cant even type a sentance with out the hell of looking at the effing words to se whats all backwards and wrong,,,,im so screwed ,,i mite as well just off the bridge,i cant dea,l,,i canrt deal imxcjnaesoufnqoeivkzljxc voiausgh-qivghboh AND I WONT BE VACK HERE TO LOG ANYMORE ABOUT MY LIFE THAT IS SO FUCKED- bye forever,,imnotfdoing this shit anymore,(tellim fustrated,,yep,i AM) i cant do anything ..i want my life back,, what is there for me-= NOTHING
i just deleteed the link to this blofg and i womntn be back anytime soon,,i gotta go out and find a job that i can do..im crying all day ,,and its nogood

this man is something "else" i screamed when i saw this on CNN,,i cannot tell u how personal this is,,we were in Dallas at the KING TUT EXHIBIT and no cameras allowed ... tina- kelly- and i had a LONG LONG time with the sarcophagus and we noticed one special very special icon -what i call hieroglyphics but this icon LOOKED LIKE BARACK OBAMA!! and we freaked right there in the dark and beautiful exhibit room where we looked over king tuts sarcophagus,,AKA tomb. golden and so magical i was in heaven the whole time i was with my Egyptian spirits. i have pics here:
look at this Barack is being shown the VERY same icon with doctor Hawass,(my hero) and they say the same thing we did,,
short clip-watch is here: swear i about cried for the coincidence of it all