the weather is 79 degrees,,,i cannot believe the sun and warmth,,BUT-then tonite back down to the twenties again,,,up-down-up-down- this has been hard RA weather.

kelly got BLESSED YESTERDAY,,i keep tellin her,,lets just be "lillys of the valley " jesus said to live like lillys in the valley- god provides what they need -day in and day out- they have no worries and all they need is always provided- where no worries should be with faith and by doing good, all things proper will be provided and all will be blessed and guess what..............
its true,,her mom called said please come by,,we were already out, so we stopped on by her cute lil old house.....see what was up?
her&Joys house is soooooo cute i LOVE IT=OOPS!
<-angela and joy kellys moms,
photo here--once i find it,,, OK whats going on here w/ my computer,,,ever since i LOST my harddrive,,(power failuer-ice stormdays) i live on a used old/replaced one now-but aLOT of my shit is GONE ,,i had a cute pic of kellys moms house and now after a search of the entire JPG collection i dont see it anywhere....this HD has a VIRUS and the sooner i can replace this HD the better,,ug! i need a new one w/o bugs (but ohhhhhhh the hasel,,kelly has VISTA its beautiful,interface looks awsome,,look at this too,,have XP but K found this tool for strartup,,its awesome,,look:

also,,i found that some of my desktop folders were missing,,i thought,,maybe they are hidden for some reson,,diod someone hack me and hide my shit,,YES,i asked windows to show hidden files and folders and found SO many things werer hidden,,over night SO I GOT HACKED for shure.

* <-moms gave kelly a laptop ,, they BOTH has realllllly blessed us- they r genereous & and with their guidence,,both K and I respect the hell outta them - we really owe them somthin' NEXT its sunday its 56 degrees outside,um, amazing..ima little RA'd for somereason??? im going to MORTON tomorrrow- i need to ,,im outta pred. and K. and buspar,,, andsomething else cant rememeber ,,,anyhoooo... today isa GOODday but i feel alittle sluggish,,, and no DOT at all this month,,am i going thru the change? maybe RA has something to do wiht htat,,im too young!ahhhhhhhhhhhh

i could not come back yesterday,,sbc global connection dropped again,,and a guy from att came out this am,,8.00 am,whew! and fixed us,,god i love technical geeks!= OH and i missed trash day damnit

its early friday morning,,, i need to get back into bad -but my feet and hips woke me up and also a hedache from hell - the air is just awful-i had to take 4Ibuprphine - 1darvon -1 klonipin and 1 applesauce,due to hunger-,
kelly has the day off -yippie- that alarm would be going off right now and the day would begin, but instead - im going back to that warm and comfy bed,
must add more later

3.00 pmnow and ive had no nap..ive been buzy ,,but dont know with what,,kinda like time just passed with a blink of an eye..very very .weird. ITS SNOWING tho and thats why the blog- - i have had the same sinus headache for over 5-6 days now-going thru the Ibuprophine like crazy- heres a film of me today

TODAY= the freezing weather is back,,except the sun is shining too,,,so that kinda helps,,its pre-nap,,11.05,,my hips areaching so bad i have to go lay on heating pad for awhile to get past this and able to cary on thru the day w/ LOTS of things to do,,we gotta alot of transformers to look over, and price to sell,,, LOOK:
picture here:
heheheee
ive spent all morning sanitizing cuz shawny has a cold and was here last nite,,i had to do door handels ansd computer all of it,,for the second day too,,no bitching,,just saying,,its alot of work,, to anti germ everything
i cant afford to catch a cold, or get "any kind" of sick!
forgot to mention that it was a THERAPY nite="can we talk?" yep OHno i,i forgot aaaalll about it,,,6.00pm appt with her, and i FLEW up there so quick,,,, i missed my last 2 appts,so not good to miss this one at all,,,,, ~kelly and shawny went to class - i went to se my shrink and came home to a quite house untill 10.00 pm when kell got in / i had promised my shrink that i would start a painting on canvas as soon as i got home,,
she said " im not askin' you to like stay uplate or start some masterpiece,,but promise me you will add color to canvas when you get home?" ,i promised her i would (it had been awhile,,i had alot built up- i cried Alot,embarressed-kinda) so anyhoooo- reporting in for therapy..boi, did i need it- i said FLAT_OUT " im depressed and scared to go anywhere "
,.i brought a little note that said dont froget to tell shrink about gorephobia and ppl scare me -

monday morning and im back from droppin off CaKe aka kelly @ work.
i had so many thoughts thru the nite, io did not sleep deep and i woke up 2x as usuual thru the nite,, usualy its my feet that awaken me,, its just the normal thing/ im so greatful that i dont have to go into a job and sit in pain like over a year ago at cavalry,,i mean i was on last breath before i thewin the towel,,,,i could no longer go another day with out somekind of suicide attempt to get out of the misery and paiin and oucheness of it all- i mean EVERY damn jointwas gettin it then.
today is 50 degrees to start off with art 7.00am,,and its HUMID as hell so no bennifit from the warmth,,
TODAY i ned to meet kelly for lunch and we r going over to the philtower to see allen about some investment that we are interested in adn we are going to officially invest buy low sell high- i think this is a blessing from GOD-and aaaahhhhh if everything goes as we plan,,we gonna be just fine.
i give thanks NOW in advance for all blessings that come my way - via jesus...hes always got my back thats fer-sher!!!!!!!!!!tried tested & true - Amen.