blessed Easter morning

im trying to understand WHY people do not treasure the little creatures of this earth and kick them to the side as if they were bic lighters empty and useless,, OH im so sad and broken hearted and cannot stop the crying ... 4 houses down ... in the street,,,, i little black kitten dead ,, i went to get him,, i wrapped him in a towel,, i prayed and i cried so hard for the little black kitten - HE WILL BE BURIED IN OUR GARDEN.

OH LORD I PRAY, I PRAY FOR STRENGTH, AND UNDERSTANDING IN THIS MATTER.

LORD I NEED TO UNDERSTAND WHY ,,,, WHY ,,, WHY DO PRECIOUS ANIMALS HAVE TO BE SLAUGHTERED? I CANNOT BEAR IT .. GOD HELP ME UNDERSTAND. I PRAY IN THE NAME OF LORD JESUS AND SAVIOUR OF THE EARTH. COMFORT ME LORD, I PRAY.

this was a black kitten about as big as our star here,, about 6- 9 moths old,,

im just very very sad about this. i knocked on their door,, no one came,,i was gonna tell em that i would have loved and cared for this kitten and why did they let a little kitten outside like that? - no one came to the door. i knocked 2 Xs.

i cannot bear the suffering of animals whatSOever.
i believe in Buddhist ways - that every living thing has a RIGHT to live. even snakes bugs and flys. i mean ...everything has a purpose and everything has rights! even worms in the ground have rights the right to live and enjoy its time as it goes thru the cycle of life.
i am going out to prepare a place in the ground for this little jewel . and i will pray for the strength to give it a place of safety - it deserved that in life , i never had a chance to help it,, why,, oh God ,, now,, im crying again.

i love this alien named jesus.

im really sick,as in RA sick, its depressing me and i cant win or beat it,,its stronger then i am , i feel bad about that, and i8 want to contribute to society or to this unit i live in m,,it makes me feel worthless and incapable . enuff noise for now, im in a lot of pain so it makes me crazy i found the salt and pepper in the fridge and the milk on the kitchen shelf
my feet/knees hurt so bad -i can hardly stand up and walk now.

ola! its a thrusday morning and its THE FIRST COLD MORNING of this year..im in long sleeves and sweatpants,,i dunno what we r gonna do this year,,all of our winter clothing is so worn out,,i sewed up holes last year to keep us going,,and now i gotta go thru all the warm clothing and see what we have here...and what needs to be tossed (due to holes and falling apart at the seams) its so depressing,,i cant believe me "the ol' queen of fashion freak" is just scrounging around in hand-me downs- and rags..im appreciative tho forALL the hand-me-downs,,but its all summer stuff and here comes winter,,im gonna be a" lilly of the valley" philosophy and let GOD lead me to the warm clothing for us this winter, God always provides if i stop fr one minuet and think of the situations in my past ...i see where intervention was "godly" and i believe that w/aaaaaallll my heart,,heres a quick story of what i mean,,,
about the year 2003 summer, we me and kelly- were hunkered down in a small apt afterme loosing my job as tech support at netscape..heres my old website,,
http://trinity_1970.tripod.com/
god i LOVED THAT JOB and LOVED THOSE PPL- best job i ever had ...netscape support team,,abut twenty of us and we handeled all the incomming calls for troubleshooting isssues and fixing issues for people over the phone- i statred to get my RA symptoms then ,,and didnt know what was going on with me,,i was ALWAYS HEALTHY -heck i even walked to work,(it was just across the street tho) things started to go down health wise,,long story short,,we ended up in kellys apt andi was under the RA spell so bad,we thought i had LUPUS fersher,,just based on symptoms,,,i hadnt concidered RA... we had nothing and no money and our food was gone,,then a knock at our door from the neighbor who we really didnt know,,wejust said hi 2 him a couple of times..he bought tons of bags of food to us ,,he said he just doesnt have space for all that food -he went crazy at the grocery store, and i mean these were bags of penut butter jelly bread pudding cake icecream all sorts fruits and veggies,,cannned and fresh,,his name was john,,he must have been a angel from the lord im sure... well,,he didnt know anything about us,,he didnt know we were starving,,but jesus did,,and we as lillies of the valley,,just witnessed Jesus's truth about trusting the lord and he will lead me to the path of good and right Amen. OMG = GUESS WHO JUST CALLED the stongest christian i have ever met=JUDY she works for Victory christian center,,here in Ttown=
http://www.victorytulsa.org/
and she is bringing me some plants to care for and keep,,we talked awhile and it was great to hear from her. shes a very special lady (probably a angel on earth) disguised as human...heheheeee. really i do just love her.
its now 9.30 am and imexhausted already, with a LONG list ofthings to get done today-
im going to rest now for 1 hour then get going,,i must rest in order to have the strength to do it all today...I am back from napping and going thru the list of things to do,,but i only got a few things done,,,and the mostimportant - i made a appt wth a new doctor,,just primary care but this doctor i hear is real nice and compasionate ,,appt is nov 14th 2.30 pm

im sad thinking about my dad,,who i love but he has not written to me nd itsbreaking my heart,,its like they all dont care about me inminnesota anymore,,i dont understand how family can be so so distant,,and my own mother doesnt even know about me at all,,its so depressing to me,

i love my dad but im a bother to him i think,,or something,,i dontknow why he wont email me to say hello - how r u doing>? im upset now..bye

where i been hanging out lately...... http://www.truthed.com/

tyingto get it .. i should get this book,, i see its very much a #1 seller now-
IdoLOVE Zach.SITCHEN -his writtings are incredible,
*reading always puts me to sleep so i look for the MP3s and just let the guy read it to me aloud! thats the BEST way for me,(im a ADD head) *

=OMG this MOVIE is a TRIP!
these guys are telling me that there is NO JESUS,,oh god,forgive them,, for they know NOT what they r saying,,,
this film blew me away,,i think my chin was on the floor the whole time-and i really didnt watch all of it because i went into shock when they said jesus never was,,i doNOT belive that at all,,jesus WAS here but i have no proof - BUT history and stories from the bible are true as sientists discover new places andnew evidence- THE BIBLE IS HISTORY!! btw-thats a great book i own,,,anyhoooo=
>> thats what the film is all about<<. we believe in things that we dont even know if they are TURE or not,,,so effing weird- i have to think of this - "imsoulsearchin''' LOOK , people are gonna say " why do u watch/read or look at this type of stuff " why not ITS ON FRONT OF ME,,IM NOT SCARED and i will never waver in my allegance with the ut most powerful creator of me and you and everything else! i look/size up on everything,,im a libra,,i need MIDDLE and i need justice and truth, im so in LOVE W/beauty ,LOVE ,& harmony,,i craaaaave that,,i neeeeethat,,,
i look at religion as a whole not a catagory NO LABLES./ no catagory-a ONE GOD whatever HER name is,,,,,(opps i had writting here but i see its gone---) cuz i was on a spin- and just didnt even look back at what i typed,,i had to go then so its screwed,,im leaving it alone thho,,,and just continue here- i was saying / typing NO i will never accept that Jesus never was,,
i wil not believe that jesus never WAS!!!NOWAY! he WAS here-period-
=its 6.00 am thursday morn,,i awoke to NO ats,,,i had to get up and find out why>? well,,,nothing,,i empressed,,she remembered if she woke me up that she mite go to the kennel untill 6.00 am and THEN I'LL get up,,,,not at 4.30 am tho,makes a looong morning
gotta link to this site --its got evenything alien and more news of anything UFOish=
UFOs Aliens Bigfoot Government Cover Ups ...
http://www.truthed.com/
it's the #1 resource for News, Videos, And Discussion on UFOs, Aliens,Government Cover Ups, Big Foot, Weird Travels, JFK, Hot Topics and More!www.truthed.com/ yep,great stuff indeeed,,i endulge and time will go by do fast - if i look at sites like that, i am hooked on UFOs
i have YOGA today-and meditation(included n class) 2.30 pm

i couldnt make it to YOGA(tear) ihad to sleep,,somethings wrong w/ me again,,i said the other day im "RIP VAN WINKEL lately" -- i feel like i cant get enuff sleep --
i just ate dinner and al is quiet tonite ...i was just clickin around,,from CNN off to some other link,,then off to another,but whats weird about this is i ended up here,, to read this story, and had to post it for "G" we were kinda talkin bout religion and i am so wide open to possibilities and i always think that im out there,,,but then i saw this and thought " awwwwwwww-ThankU Jesus " hes so sweet to us: i needed something like this story,,i was searching in my heart today about this very topic-
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source:
http://www.russiatoday.com/features/news/24731?gclid=CNf0mNGyw5UCFRJdxwodlyDaRg
May 14, 2008, 11:12
Aliens are our brothers:
Vatican There is no contradiction between faith in God and believing that aliens may live somewhere in the universe, according to the Vatican’s chief astronomer, the Associated Press reports.
In the interview with the Vatican newspaper L'Osservatore Romano, the Rev. Jose Gabriel Funes is quoted as saying he doesn’t rule out the possibility that life could have developed on other planets."Just as we consider earthly creatures as 'a brother,' and 'sister,' why should we not talk about an 'extra-terrestrial brother'? It would still be part of creation," said Funes. "Thinking otherwise would be like ‘putting limits’ on God’s omnipotence."Funes discussed the relationship between science and faith, saying there was no contradiction between the two.He also urged the Church and the scientific community to leave behind any divisions.
im so happy about this "liberal" statement

as far as blessings,,, these are ours,,,,aaaaaallll three of um.
they are so precious