the doctors TRICKED me again, then they leme down hard!

i got a call from a rhematoligist,,they called as per doctor whittes request --

to set up a appt for me . JUNE 30th 2009-

i was crying from greatfulness, i thought GOD was taking over the situation for me.

i thought god sent this gift of medicine - BUT AT THE END OF THE CALL THEY SAID BRING MONEY & LOTS of it -,,LIKE $200.00 plus AND PAY OUT THE REST,NO FUCKING WAY,.,IM SORRY DO U THINK MONEY GROWS ON TREES ?????I HAVE NO MONEY!!!! I HAVE NOTHING-WHY WOULD YOU CALL AND TEASE ME LIKE that,,WHY WHY WHY? what the hell are they thinking,,im over here depresessed and hurting and well,,frankly im dieing,,,slow and agonizing death,,torcher from RA. and depression.

i had hope

then they ripped it all away,,

i may just lay down and die,,fuckem,,,i cant handel this evil and Uncaring America that i live in,,its NO VILLAGE HERE

these are all assholes and selfish and evil,,i want nothing to do w/ any KIND of evil,,soo that means i cant go to anymore doctors,,-! they only want you money and if you have more then a headache,,or diabetes whatever and or high blood pressure,,thats a "can fix it" OH but anything else,,OMG just inadequate as allll can be -- i love this technology age we live in,,BUT ive NEVER EVER seen so much division and hate as i do today,,, i wish i could have lived duing the 1950s

i NOTICED THIS;

~~~OUR FEDERAL BUILDING DOWNTOWN tulsa oklahoma DOESN'T HAVE BARACK'S PICTURE UP,,THEY R A BUNCH OF -KKK DOWN HERE RUNNING THINGS

OMG THEY WONT EVEN ACKNOWLEDGE THAT HE WoN FAIR AND SQUARE,,LIVE WITH IT,,AND HOW DARE THY JUDGE BY THE COLOR OF SKIN,,WHEN HES ALREADY PASSED BUSH (BOTH) BY FAR WITH DIPLOMACY AND ELEGANCE AND INTELLIGENCE,I LOVE BARACK OBAMA,,HES AWESOME--anyone got a problem with that>??

(SAW the speech for Islam and it was eloquent)