SUNDAY october 29th
i FEEL like shit! and i think it shows -i caught a cold or something,,kelly took this picture of me before i even looked in the mirror to apoprove a picture,hahaha................................. now ,,i spent 4 hours getting medicated and ready for TWO "angels" angela and joy- to come over to our drafty ol'house and fix the drafty-ness... its gonna be coldthis winter and we need to be ready - and we have hardly any money, so we have been blessed by 2 angels,,,kellys MOMS angela and joy,,,,they spent HOURs on our windows and lots $$$ to secure the drafty windows and north side of this ol' house,,it has made a huge differentce just in one day,,we went out on front porch and it was warm,,
* i went to get cleaned up a bit

i recieved an email as he is going to egypt for a holidAY with his friends
,,MY FATHER IS IN EGYPT now! thats kinda neat,, not just everyone gets to just hop on a plane and go to see the The Great Pyramid of Giza in Egypt. i mean Really!
(as he celebrates his 65th birthday and in egypt as his obsession - and i i i now know where i get my obsession w/ egypt,,huuumm,,, bloood
email from my dad:
Wednesday 25 October 2006 Air Egyptair - Flight MS 0986 Depart: NY --Arrive: Cairo Int'l Airport Thursday, October 26, 2006 HES IN EGYPT RIGHT NOW OMg thats tooooooo damn kool-- i ONLY dream of it,,i have been down for days with this computer virus and issues with the power supply and other issues as well,,(me being sick with cold and fever)dont wanna give details on computer issues because its upsetting i had backed up tons of corresponsence with SSI and everyone,,all my emails and addresses r now GONE .. i must learn that everything isnt for.ever,,a HARD-- H-A-R-D lesson2 learn ,,i need to learn it with computers,,back it up or no bitching.

dont do the metho injections anymore,,feeling better about that,,my complaints of being too cold and too tired are disapearing and my energy seems to be increasing as days go by,,apitite increased as well,,(i guess i have may gained 5 pounds now) metho was killing me i did not like it from the begining,,and aways complained about it,,,
i have remicade soon,, nov something,,, my hands look injured and soar and boney? but i feel like i look better in the face,,or maybe NOT,,,i have issues now with my spine,it hurts all the time,All the time,most all in the upperr spine between shoulder ,,and also left hip inflMMED all to hell, left not right,, muggy weather and not so cold,,thats LUCKY! i feel strange tho,,like lights are on but noone is home,,weird,,, .i dunno~!

10-23rd ug~! not been well,,, no energy -hard to sleep, have not been clear inmy head for sometime,,dont know why,,i think the world is comming to an end,, someone mite say,,ah shes just pessimistic ..yaknow....................but i am NOT... i swear im super positive !!!
i am themostpositive ,,but the "air" is different now and im missing time and kellys getting tired of hauling my ass around,, no telling whats around the next corner,,but my bones hurt,,my hands are the worst they have been in a while,,its been since august since i TOOK anyMETHOTREXATE,,allllllllllllooooong time./// im just doing the remicade & prednisone-10 ml daily --End times are f- freakin me bad lately.

* bitched about my splits on my last blog,,they are just now healing up,,one is stll bad,, i should have taken pics,,i couldnt hold a camera,,,

my dad told me that grandma amanda biwer said " if u dont feel good - then go sit in the sun!!,,so i did,, and i felt good in the sun,,then the sun disappeared

and i was back at square one,HA! we need more sun around here thats a 10-4 ova!

i have no hands lately,,hurts to type..
later with the info/details of the late.
I am going to increase my pred- perhaps this will allow me to get thru typing,,i have bad splits in the tips of my fingers-- i should wouldtake a picture,BUT i dont have my camera software setup yet..i may stumble thru that NOW.. pictures are waiting on me,,,,

OMG!! I LOst everyting onmy HD,,virus and superSIZE takedown,,it took all this time to get AT-LEAST........ at- least right...... here to say "hi blog", but now - ihave at least 1-2 dAYS of insAtLLING allll my..world,,,my things,,
,,ive been soo sick and cold lately,,tired,but,, tryingKEEP doing all i can do to keep chin up - as they say,,,and move -move- get-er-done-feel like the world may just END tomorrow ,,seems like it is going to end,, if it does i said ....ha...TOLD YA!!...hehe.
VOTE baraCK OBama
i have to reboot now bye blog..teardrop

october 11 2006 -its beeen awhile,, ive slept alot & have been buzy when not asleep, i went thru a 3day OK then down,,,for few days then back up again, then back to down again = OMG no hands and feet,Today im comming out of "the second episode", my hands and feet feel MUCH better after 1.5 days of Nothing but REST. my appetite is good & ive been eating lots carbs so i can replenish my energy level...blABLALBA...
lets see,,what do i really wanna write about ,,,huuum, Ok it was our birthdays oct 3 me, and oct 8th kellbell, we went over to kellys moms for birthday pot.roast,(i call it roast.beast from "the grinch") a Roastbeast birthday supper and lots of love,,,,****kellys moms are"Us" in a few years,,with their solid foundation, homeownership,& the way they are,, its just,,,soooo us and undercontroll and firm, steady,symbolicly speaking that is.(WE LOVE:Consistency & Stability)

 

its our birthdays debi october 03 1961 Ouch!
kelly october 8 1969

we spent the third of october totally streessed about my CT scan,,on my birthday i got a call from my dr office about the results,,i could NOT belive my ears,,i ave issues and not good results,,as in issues that look like female stuff and other intersting things that i think are result of Methotrexate and i always said to all my doctors that the metho is messing with my falopian tubes,,i alaways said that ALWAYS said it to dr wiseman to dr mckay and dr gladd and hen dr malloy,,HE is the new dr at my Rheumatologist and hes only sen me 2 x then at that 2nd talk we had he injected my right hip w,cortizone(helped great) and insisted i have a CT SCAN ASAP he is the ONLY one who listened to me,,i told them i have a funky feeling in my ovaries espesially the left oone,,i NEVER Xpected this result in CT scan,,two weeks has gone by,,i neverheard a thing then on my birthday,,october 03.2006 they call with scary news and i have to see a special doctor now to deal with another fucking issue,,my god, i used to never get sick- now im just ,,,,,off the deep end,
im not worried tho,, i freaked out yesterday and went thru a breakdown TG for my klonipin-
i had to de-stress,, we prayed with my christian neighbors and they said i was healed in the name of jesus,,and guess what i feel really great today! HA how about that!?!
see my picture above???,,thats after all day at patsys and i still feel good,,i am thinking this may really go away,,we will see, METHO was taking me down- i swear /IM NOT TAKING IT EVER
again,i 'd rather go crooked and just notgoing to poisen myself anymore,, i have not had metho from september 8th and im getting my appitite back and everything,,
ps i love my dad