i feel like shit for past month or so...
my elbows are being attacked now,,this is a new area of intensity,,they have hurt in the past BUT nothing like this,,area under attack,,and nothing i can do,,sleep increase my prednisone daily more rest,,im still under extrem pain in my elblows,like never before.

I HAVE JUST SLEPT FOR 5 DAYS STRAIGHT -This does include the day afternoon eve and allllll nitetime long....the results are good,,i feell real good no bad pain in my FEET or elbows,,whatsbeen hurting lately....my feet hurt to just wak on them and i cannot wear shoes.

IM up thursady morning,,kellydoesnt feel welll,,i picked her up from wrk yesterday,,Looks like
" icka" is comming back,*(behind her ear) we started antiboiotics and put her to bed,, i slept all day and nite..i did not wake up every threr hours like i have been,,i slept allll the way thru,,because i took alot ..ALOT of benadryil to knock me out also darvon and my oxycodine which i swear i wish i could have more but my dr said NO! im doing 10 mg of Oxy in the morning then 10 mg in 12 hours,,and i have ben doing this religiously for over a year so ive become accustom to the OXY and i still feel the pain and think i need more pain meds ,,if there is ONE thing i HATE its pain,,,i used to be OK with pain,,but im just damn worn out from it,,,
here is a picture i took last nite when we got up and felt alittle stir crazy,,
we had the whole FAM DAMLY in bed --it was cute

wed aug 8th= hotter then hell outside now,,, hate this time of year,,it SUX everything is thirsty and hot and steamy and icky,,,,hate humidity -RA hates humidity.
im sittin here in the AM,,just got back from downtown,,E is wth me (sitting on the back of my chair right now im glad he appears to be back 2 normal)
i slept for 3 days and nights now
when i awoke at 6 this AM i felt a LIGHTER side of the RA iSTILL feel it in my ELBOWS FEET hands wrists but its not as intense because of the sleep,,ITS THE ONLY WAY TO HEAL.
i feel so guilty for sleeping tho- like i ma loooser..kelly said she is proud of me for giving myself a break and allowing my self to rest EVEN if its excessve,,im sleeping my life away- that REALLY JUST FLAT OUT SUX THE BIGONE

VOTE 4 RON PAUL
im so worried about elvis,hes acting weird,,like he doesnt feel good.,,now I KNOW he and scotty have been fighting over the loose cat in our hood that roams at night,,and taunts the,, they ge tso worked up and start to fught each other over that cat ?????weird--- they R brothes...& they have been fixed>>>>-> why r the acting like beasts,,
well,i fell asleep,,i had a dream,,it woke me up in horror my lil emachine was sixck and a doctor came to tell me he was dead,,i cried and cried,,i got outta bed to find e,,he was curled up underthe dinning room chair but he looks SAD! and i hugged him and got him down a wicker basket to cuddle up in,,i told him to come lay w/me in bed,,but he wants to be alone,,hes acting so weird,,i have to watch him close...i cant have a sick elvis presley,,OMG never! i love him so very. ( i even burned a CD that has birds flying and doing bird things for him to watch on TV ,,see if that helps,,)

FOLLOWUP::: the bird show helped,,E came back as i requested -he sat on the back of the leather chair and watched 1 hour of birds mating and breeding hahahha((david attenbourogh's "life of birds" 1998 parts 1-10 i have them burned for elvis -)) i went back to bed after knowing hes OK

today is monday -its 9.10 am,,ive been up from 6.00am and did all the house things helped kelly,made a luch-t0-go- and got posts ready for today,(doing joys shoes tody) at $20.00 (what the lord told me to price them at- i always use prayer and wait for the answer before i post)
im going to post then nap,cuz im reeeeeeeaaaaaalllll sssslleeeeeepy -i will come back to log
im back and its 3.05,i just woke up,,no appitite,only thirst and i have to go get kellly at 4.20p..
i need to get my head together
btw prayer works a lady is commming over at 6 to buy joys shoes for 20.00

see what i mean? ive been sittin here doing..nothin really for about 45 minuets,
i just woke right up...so weird how i just wake up like this,,my feet hurt.
now i am getting sleepy-but before, i was wide awake...i miss my cigarettes //// i used to go out when i wake up and go smoke a cigarette - its way HOT these days so going out is a bad idea for now,,its been real muggy and impossible to do anything outside....i'm so sleepy now, i must go back 2 bed...

i keep waking up every 3 hours,,its 1 37am right now,i come straight to my computer,,and check email every time i get up,,why? is there a email i could be expecting? or possibly someone that i love and write all the time (but i dont wanna bugem so i try NOT to write that much) but i just got here and in the middle of the night - just like all these other nites,,and now,,i think i know why!
its my dad,,he lives in minneapolis -bridge collapse- i wrote to ask if everyone was ok,,no word tho- never any word- (mary heard from them tho-how come i feel like im not part of ANY family)))/ why has he not emailed me back,i thought he loved me,,i then thought i was a burden to him ((now that im sick and all)) he has his family up there and they go alll over and have happy smiles and happy lives and health insurance and well,,new clothes too,,(i havent had a new clothing for over six years) my clothes all have holes in them. anyhoo,,i thought he was angry at me,,then i relized its me thats angry at me,,now,,about my dad,,i still do not understand,,
i just went back and checked all my sent folders,,i see ive blasted my dad with hellos and r u OKs? and pics of my lovely face,,,but nothin from him,, i hope they are not going to bulk,,noway,just lookin for excuse
it just tears me up to think hes disapointed in me,i hope he is nt,,but i thnk he is

another thing i noticed,,im not relaxed at all,,im unable to relax - its another reson why i wake up every three hours- i need a good tranquilizer if they make um any more?
i know the sleepmeds i use do not work at all = i still wake up after 3 benodryls and 2 hours into sleep,,i jump up,,why? i dunno ? im not relaxed